Fragile

[Dimity]

@Appleblossom glimmers indeed. In standing firm - is that like uprightness lol? - don't reject friendship when it's offered... the physicist and the new retired minister sound like potential allies.

Messiah should recharge the batteries. I've regretted not having a singing voice but used to try to sight read at piano an edition by Ebenezer someone. Easier to grasp the solos than the choruses.

[Cuddlebear]

@Appleblossom  Hello lovely how are you? I’m so glad you are finally getting  the acceptance, recognition and friendships. We love you here on the Forums. 

I’m really glad you have music and performances to help keep your mind off court. I love how your son is involved in music too. 🙂 

[Appleblossom]

@Cuddlebear Thank you. I played some Purcell today with the hymns, then visited a friend. We both can be real with our emotions with each other. It is a new experience for me to have girlfriends.  Had to wait till I was a senior. I am feeling a bit better today.

Are you steady on your dose or still tapering? Good to get your tag.

🎶💙🍎

[Cuddlebear]

@Appleblossom   Hello beautiful friend. How are you? I am so glad you’ve got a friend where you can both be yourselves and real with your emotions. That’s such a precious thing to have in your life and you deserve it. 

I am still tapering 😞 It’s been vicious and still have a while to go. I’m in such a mess. Not easy at all. 

[Appleblossom]

@Cuddlebear 

Hearing you about the difficulties of tapering.

Wish you could do it at a reasonable speed.

I am battling on today. I spent so much time in pain and became so sensitive, I am not used to being feisty or strong. I like a mystic idea of fierce tenderness, which somehow utilises aspects of both. Learning not to cave in and withdraw.

Had 2 good chats with local neighbourhood people.

Hugs

Peaceful Distraction ....

[Dimity]

@Appleblossom for you 

https://youtu.be/6Q5ZwumQM7o?si=_kxmp-mhnnxf64t5

[Cuddlebear]

@Appleblossom  Hello my beautiful friend. How are you? I know you’ve survived a lot of trauma and people have hurt you. You are strong because you are here still making new friendships and reaching out to others. You’re creating music and performing and are there for your children. You are not too sensitive on the forums you show a fierce tenderness here as you provide support even when you are struggling. 

Im glad you had a couple of decent chats with your neighbours. It helps to build a little local community. 

Yes the tapering is very hard for me and I’m really just a mess to be honest. My GP just wants it over and done with I feel pressured and am alone with no one to really advocate or support me. I can’t afford a psychiatrist. 

[Appleblossom]

Thanks for your faith in me @Cuddlebear 

Can you get a social worker or psychologist on NDIS?  I know they are not strictly medicos, but having a long term relationship with someone to advocate for you generally seems fair to me.  When we are vulnerable we accept whatever is offered.  Do you have a support co-ordinator who is looking out for you?

I know psychiatrists often charge gap fees. Surely there should be some who bulk bill for people with complex physical and psych needs like you.

Could SANE advocate for bottom line psychiatric support for those in genuine need, and on a pension. Maybe a policy could be developed that made it a requirement that psychiatrists bulk bill a portion of their patients, or the development of dedicated online clinics that specialise in complex cases, rather than revenue.

[Appleblossom]

 

The serenity of the lake, with the quiet steady wind blowing was beautiful. Thank you so much @Dimity 

I had another moment in the supermarket.  The computer wouldnt let me buy some good enough cherries that were past their use by date.  The customer service, lady was beautiful and respectful and hated the waste too. Just a human moment in the marketplace. I keep most of my shopping pretty basic. lol   Little glimmers.  Grateful.

[Dimity]

@Appleblossom @Cuddlebear my psychiatrist is a very decent fellow who bulk bills me... has since forever as my previous psychiatrist was struck off. 

I reckon if the cash register didn't allow the sale you should have got the cherries free. 

Fierce tenderness is such a maternal quality... shades of a mother raptor? It was so good to see the Collins St falcons fledge.

@Cuddlebear I respect your struggle. It took multiple attempts over a number of years for me to get off one particular med. Tapering it was always unbearable. It was eventually substituted by something else - I think the substitution must have been relatively quick. I don't remember in detail, it was a very long time ago, thank goodness.

Take care both of you. I've just started venturing out to a couple of (sheltered) support groups. Hopefully I'll practice rusty social graces.