not feeling good

[Zoe7]

Thankyou @Former-Member I try.

How are you tonight - one day left of the week!!!!!

[Former-Member]

Thank you @Zoe7 - that means so much to me. Your prayers meaning all the more because your not religious. Your heart knows no limits.....And your care strengthens me. I may tag you at difficult times - thank you my friend 💕🌹😘xxx

[Zoe7]

Tag me anytime you want - I will be here for you my friend @Former-Member

[Former-Member]

yes @Zoe7 one.... more... day! and then long weekend for us here! phew! 

Its been a very long work week. lots of problems - heartbreaking ones. I'm up to date with a lot of my work though which feels good! last year being the first year in this school i felt like i was always behind the ball learning the new system and there was always something brand new to throw me off! so feeling like im somewhat more in the drivers seat this year.

how are you doing?

[Zoe7]

Oh yeah - I nearly forgot about the long weekend - not being at work!!!!! @Former-Member

I am actually doing really well - quite surprising really. I think I have started to 'let go' of some 'stuff' and it has surprised me more than it would anyone else. 

I went to work a couple of days ago and it wasn't as difficult as it has been previously. I didn't stay long - was just dropping a spare key in. I spoke to the Principal and told her I wouldn't be back this term at least but it couldn't be confirmed until the insurance was sorted. She was very supportive (she is the only one outside my GP andpsych that knows what is really going on- partly anyway).

I didn't catch up with the kids because I thought that would be too much but I did see a couple that came to the office while I was there (and got a couple of huge hugs which was nice). I am feeling more positive about getting back sometime this year - I do really miss the kids - and even the work.

I read about the lawn mower earlier - what else has happened? It's ok if you don'twant  to share.

Sending you hugs and love

Zoe 

[Former-Member]

Soemtimes its quite surprising how quick things can turn a corner onto a nicer street. I feel really quite good this week too. Also not sure whats changed for me. My psychologist thinks im doing really well too, even got a gold star?! So i'm practicing 'being ok!' 

I can understand how overwhelming it can be to go back and see your kids. I felt the same... also felt this massive wave of guilt when i did see them again.. but they were just happy to see me! Kids are amazing, they're so forgiving and understanding. They're amazing. 

The other issues going on are just so complicated, but also trying to do the what can i control thing and i know that i have done what i can and i'll do what i can tomorrow. 

lj

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member

That sounds like a great way to think - control what you can and know you have done the best you can each day! I am so pleased to hear that you are feeling more positive this week - maybe it's knowing that you only have 4 days of work next week lol.

Yes kids are amazing - the kids at my school make me smile everytime I see them. My days at work always start when I see the kids because they are so happy to see me. It's a lovely feeling.

Just wanted to let you know that if you ever need to talk about anything then I am here for you - if you need!!!

Have a great day tomorrow and enjoy the wonderful gift that kids give you.

Zoe

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Zoe7 - Sorry I haven't been here so much lately. Just so busy and have put more limits on how much time i spend doing different things. Getting a better balance I guess.
Hugs
xx

[Zoe7]

Anytime @Former-Member 

...and balance is really important - at the moment I am spending nearly all my time on here and I know I will have to start limiting this soon too when I start moving towards going back to work.

But for now - I cannot explain how much this place has helped me - to you guys I can - but not to any 'outsiders' - they wouldn't understand anyway. It is a very special community on here and one that I am so very fortunate to be part of.

The offer stands anytime @Former-Member - give and receive... and it';s now my time to give 

Zoe

[BlueBay]

Hi @Zoe7 @Former-Member @Former-Member @Owlunar @Faith-and-Hope @utopia @Appleblossom

Yesterday the agent put the board back up to sell our place.  Now we have increased the price to suit develpers and investors and others.  It turned out good timing because there is another house for sale in our street and people have to drive past ours first.  We had about 6 cars stop today to look.  By lunchtime we had the agent ring us to say he had someone that wanted to come through at 5pm.  We cleaned up and made the hosue look really nice with flowers and candles.  The agent turned up and said there were now actually 2 groups coming through.  We got a call before from agent saying both groups very interested.  Second group is a builder and interior designer (so they can see how it would look by doiong it up). 

Now it's starting to feel like we are getting closer to selling.  Things are happening again.  I'll let you all know what happens.

I am feeling really exhausted, just wanted to sleep this afternoon.  i worked this morning and now am ready for bed.  having dinner soon, the guys are going to a car club and I will be home alone as my daughter will go to her partner's house.  i think i will have an early night.

how is everyone going? been thinking of a lot of people from here and hoping you are all good.

@Owlunar I haven't seen you on here lately and I am really hoping you are okay.  I hope to chat to you soon. xxoo