Support for Flowerlove22

[PeppyPatti]

Yes it’s something that builds up - needing to be alone. 

@Sunnyside226 

I love seeing you here but if it’s too much - well jeepers, I like you are thinking what can you do to stay safe. 
I’m here sitting either way you. Not too close xx

[Sunnyside226]

@Dreamy   I'm tried of pushing though I'm tired of life    i don't see myself as happy as I was weeks ago

I packed my bag  I want to run away from my house it feels so different

My sis put on her mum pants asked the question. 

How are you today ?   Thankyou for your message earlier it means a lot. 

I seen your message about the $200 haha.  On "her list"  there's lots of make up a handbag  and some kind of girly thing I have no clue what it is lol   she was screaming this morning  there was a daddy long leg spider  she woke the whole house up  her response was "I'm just a girl" 😂.  

Sorry for rumbling on haha 

[Dreamy]

Oh @Sunnyside226, I truly understand those feelings so well. I hear you when you say you don't see yourself as happy as you were weeks ago, alot of things have happened. Losing a family member, a loved one, that takes a toll. The grief that comes with it isn't straight forward, it can take time, it takes support and it takes patience and strength which are hard to find when we are feeling so hurt and unhappy. But the community is here for you, I'm here for you always. We can take things slowly, step by step, minute by minute if need be, but slowly we can get through the hard times and get back to a place where you can feel that happiness again. It doesn't mean you won't ever feel sad or hurt cos those feelings will always come up but it's about finding a balance, allowing ourselves to feel those things but not becoming stuck there permanently. 

Your sis putting on her mum pants and asking that question. How did it feel, were you able to answer it? It's ok if you don't want to share about it, I respect you and how much you feel comfortable sharing. 

Haha I wouldn't know the first thing about make-up 😂. Not the daddy long legs, oh they are harmless and I just put them outside 😂. Your sis cracks me up 😂.

Ramble away my friend, I'm happy to listen ☺️.

I just have Casper a bath, he had fun doing zoomies outside after. Once he's dry I'll get a pic to send to you. You're gonna love it hehe

[Sunnyside226]

@Dreamy  

Your right in everything you said  

If I'm honest  everything kinda feels close together   family member died on the weekend mums thing coming up next week  I'm here griefing after person after person I haven't gotten over my parents or mate yet  it does suck a lot.  

I know you say the community is here but  I don't talk to a lot of people on here I only talk to you and aunty glow that's it.  It feels like all the relationships I did have with most people including some of the other ladies have Faded 

It feels like because me and aunty glow have build a connection me &her talk more that the others may don't see a connection anymore.     She's helped me with a lot of things.  I've gotten comfortable with her.  Guess what I'm saying you click with people then that click goes ( sorry for not making sense) 

You @Dreamy  your a lovely person you have helped me in ways  when we feel bad we make each laugh  we sit with each other  in pain at different hours of the day and night.  I remember talking to you till 2/3 in the morning I didn't want you to be alone. I love how you share pictures of Casper with me   your a good dog mum to Casper.  I hope you and him have lots of fun together ( even if he snores in your ear) haha 

Thankyou for being my friend. 

When she asked the question if I was feeling suicidal I didn't really say anything  I didn't really know what to say I've been feeling different moods all day.  Her mum pants are still on because she is worried which I understand. 

Haha  that's 2 of us lol 

Well in her eyes at 5am daddy long legs is scary haha  😂. That what happened when you don't turn the lights on 😂 it gave her a fright 

I bet he's all nice and fresh now till he rolls in dirt 😂😂  I'll look forward to the picture. @Dreamy 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 it's Casper in a stitch costume 😂

 

 

 

 

 

[AuntGlow]

Oh, this makes me so happy to read. @Sunnyside226 🥹

How did you and your partner meet?

It sounds like they aren't very kind to you, and you are allowed to have strong feelings about this. How can you protect yourself and your energy throughout the Christmas period?  

" How do I give myself the right words?  " Hmm, what would you say if it were @Dreamy sharing these feelings with you? 

I hear you. Do you have a safety plan in case things escalate for you?

Aww thank you for asking. I am quite tired at the moment and I think a break to connect with nature will be nice, but I am looking forward to what the new year will bring. 💖

How did you feel after talking with your mate? Proud of you. 

OMG a date!!! That's so cute. Will she see them again?? And no I actually don't have Tiktok. 🫣

I love her "I'm just a girl!" comment. hahah 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 i really do understand, it's like one thing after another and you don't even get a chance to catch your breath in between. I'm not sure it's ever possible to get over things like losing your parents, yes it can become easier over time but it's still going to hurt at times. 

I get that, I know it's hard making connections in an anonymous forum aswell. But look at how we connected, we just started chatting and we built a friendship even though we don't know each other personally. The peer support workers are always around to offer support where it's needed but it really comes down to being peer-to-peer support here, so the community being there for each other. I've developed a few really close connections here, people i talk to almost every day when I come here. There's some that I've made a connection with and for whatever reason they have left or we just sort of became distant, but it happens. Theres a saying that was shared with me a little while ago, I'll share it here with you. 

 

I've always loved our chats, and it's meant alot to me when you've chatted to me at ridiculous hours of the night to offer support. We are always great at making each other laugh and it's over many different things. That's what's great about this space, we can sit in the pain, we can laugh together, we can talk at all hours of the day or night. Haha Casper is a good boy and I'm so thankful to have him, I'm glad I can share pictures of him here with you and the community. 

You're so welcome and thankyou for being mine ☺️.

That's ok that you didn't say much, your sis knows without you even having to speak cos you have a connection with each other. I'm glad you have her with you and that you have your partner aswell, they love you and care for you just as you do them. 

Haha I've dealt with 3 spiders today inside my house, although 2 were only money spiders 😂. Nothing like a 5am spider scare 😂

[Sunnyside226]

Oh my aunty glow 💛 

It's a story how we met.  Only if you want to know tho 

They ain't kind  it does hurt me  I've given them changes.  

That's where I'm struggling @AuntGlow   I don't know how to protect myself  besides already trying blocking. 

I need to think about that before I put words up here  I promise I will just don't want to. Say anything wrong 

No I don't have a safety plan.   I've tried doing one myself weeks ago didn't know what I wanted on It

I felt ok   it was nice talking with my mate.  I didn't feel the need to hide.

Yes she went on a date  I had to  see them Frist because she was so stressed.   She said she wants to see them again so hopefully next week.  

You don't have tiktok.  I never thought anyone would say that haha 😂 

Haha "I'm just a girl"     she puts the bowtie there too lol  @AuntGlow   

Do you have any plans for the weekend? 

Sorry to hear your tired. Do you mean you go bush walking to connect with nature or just outside?  I know it's months how you settling in your new house/flat?    Hope your new year goes lovely for you. 💛💛🫂  

[Sunnyside226]

@Dreamy  I think I've too much my body feels different.  

I get that  just breathe.  I don't think I would get over the deaths till I die. 

I get that.  It does kinda feel like more members get to talk to peer workers more then others.  Not saying it's good or bad.   I always thought that's what a peer worker is where they share their lived experience and talk to others 

I get that they don't have every mental health issue etc   unless things have changed to what a peer worker is moving forward now

That's a lovely message @Dreamy thankyou 

It's been nice  chatting too  even if I'm a grumpy bum at times haha. 

I honestly don't mind what time of day you need to chat? Half the time I'm awake anyways I'm either working or gaming  ( I do game most nights haha) 

Hahah Casper he's soooo cute  I love the pictures of him.  Was dressing up difficult i can see you just running after him 😂 

Haha I read that line wrong haha 😂 

She still has her mum pants on. She's trying to do things that make me laugh and smile.  Side note she showed me a stitch handbag she's like I'll get that for you to me I was  I wouldn't use it more it's for herself haha

Ew spiders, what In the world is a money spider??  

😂 The 5am scares  I'm still laughing at her for her comment "I'm just a girl" 😂 poor her not. 

I've wanted to ask you and aunty glow if you guys have tried hungry Jack's dirty sodas drink? 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 i hear you, I've lost many people in my life and for some of them it's gotten easier over time for others it still hurts like hell. 

The peer support workers will often focus on those that are struggling and who may have little or no interaction with other members, then they'll usually tag other members in to try to get that peer-to-peer support happening. I know they get so many tags and notifications a day and i can't even imagine how hard it is to keep up with them all, sometimes mine goes crazy and I get over 200 emails a day for various notifications 😂.

Haha I'm here for all the moods, honestly some of mine haven't been great lately 😂. But you're not a grumpy bum lol

I love our chats both daytime and the crazy hours of the night ☺️.

Haha Casper loves dressing up, he just stands there and let's me put whatever on him 😂

Hehe those mum pants are getting a workout today, I'm glad she cares though. Her trying to make you smile and laugh is sweet. Haha your sis trying to buy you a stitch bag, secretly she just wants it for herself 😂.

Money spiders are just a tiny little spider, not sure why they have the name really lol. 

The I'm just a girl comment is hilarious 😂.

I don't eat any fast food so I have no idea what they are like 😂