~ The Toolshed ~

[Chasingsunsets]

Hey @Jynx! Nice one about describing your sad. which ones do you connect with? I think I connected most with heavy sad and big sad.

@REDLINEZ750 nice to hear from you going ok, still not great hense haven’t been on here as much as I would have liked but still doing ok 😊

how are you and Pooky going? Yes I am glad to be with indi she’s the best!

[Chasingsunsets]

Haha @Mustang67, I love it!! Look forward to seeing what October has 😂😂🤭

[Mustang67]

@Chasingsunsets @Jynx @REDLINEZ750 @AlwaysMyself @ENKELI @Shaz51 

I am feeling exhausted after trying to keep myself from thinking around the events that led to my partner's death. It is the anniversary of his death tomorrow, so for today I am going to try and relax and watch some movies or shows. But I have to be careful and hope no one dies, as it will set me off.  I don't mind the crying, it's just the "what ifs" that could send me spiralling. 

[ENKELI]

@Mustang67 I am so sorry that you are having to go through this struggle. The what ifs are the most painful. Logically we know that there is nothing we could have done but we still ruminate and the pain it causes can be devastating.

I am thinking of you and if okay with you I will say some prayers to help you through this tough time xo

[Mustang67]

@ENKELI Thank you so much, I really appreciate that ❤️ 

Your kindness brought a tear to my eye

[REDLINEZ750]

i know the pain you sit with,

there are some happy thoughts among the sadness , i hjope they help at  this time

@Mustang67 

[Mustang67]

@Jynx @ENKELI @Chasingsunsets @REDLINEZ750 @AlwaysMyself @Dreamy @PeppyPatti @Blackcloud  and anyone else about 

I found this as anniversary memory that came up in my post on social media 

I still have a few traumas to address, but as I am sure you are all aware, it takes time to find the right method to deal with them. But I am definitely in a mindset than I was this time last year.

[Mustang67]

@REDLINEZ750 yes there are some happy thoughts, but because of my memory issues and the length of time that has past, they are fading. Most of the time I only seem to remember something if I had a strong emotional reaction to it. Either good or bad. But I am over the anger part with what he put me through, so looking at finding those happy memories this year.

[Dreamy]

 

 

    

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[Mustang67]

@Dreamy they are all great. I resonate with the seal one. As this is how I see my journey. Sometimes it feels like I take 3 steps forward and two steps back. But to me I am still moving forward.