The Weekly Friday Feast

[Decadian]

@Former-Member and @utopia

Yes - this is terrific - really great

And you are right Utopia - we can never meet nor even know each other's names - and if I ever write more for publication I will not even use my legal name - all I did about this in the past was so disturbing to my family I was published under a different name - and I will use that same name in the future

We can never know how we affect other people - we can lead by example and I have found through life it is not the popular people who have been the most influential but rather people who tend to be loners - who have run the risk of being a little different

Actually - I already have a book I have unearthed containing Aboriginal Myths, Legends and Fables - and all of these are different things - I may have looked at it in the past but for some reason I have kept this book for many years so this is something I can start with straight away

And Teej - I am so far behind with my posts - I have read that things have been really bad for you during the last couple of days when I have not been on-line - and I guess there are times when I won't be present - I can only handle a limited amount of "stuff" at times

But I do care and I notice - although you may not have noticed this - you do seem to have it together more than you did a few months ago - when you sat in your car because it was safe. I didn't catch all your messages over this time but I know it was a really bad spell

Is it Christmas - Christmas Blues - yes -  I understand. I had a serve of that yesterday when I was feeling really bleak - I have actually bought nearly everything but felt overwhelmed with the little I haven't done

Still - I was thinking of you - and hope things are less painful for you right now

[hugs]

Dec

[Zoe7]

Evening @Faith-and-Hope

Bit late for dinner - maybe need to start a breakfast club (you'd be early for that LOL). How's  your day been?

[Former-Member]

I concur with much of what you say @Decadian about it's not those who are popular that often inspire us or create great change. 

I am feeling like I'm getting further and further behind with my posts @Decadian. I'm not sure if that's that there are more people on the forum to respond to or it is me trying to get it together to respond. I guess it's both but I know I'm frustrated at myself for not being able to do it.

The thing is @Decadian its really hard to describe ones mental health. I know on one hand that I have come a way forward yet I feel that my mental health in the last two weeks has been the worst it has this year. The last few days have been incredibly difficult to get through and the sad thing is it is all me living in my head and giving power to all my demons. I can't claim a chemical imbalance or anything outside me it is all just me giving in to my thoughts and feelings. I have no anniversaries to remember or survive, I just feel soooo messed up inside my head and angry. Anyway I hope that things calm a little but I know they won't in this lead up to Christmas which is playing merry hell with so many of us. I just want it over. Wow I've turned this into an almighty vent. So sorry. 

I was so pleased that you found calm today and find ways to reflect with out the very heavy emotion. It sounds like this psychologist is doing some great work with you @Decadian and I loved reading that you are finding peace with some things.

well I hope that your lead up to Christmas is calm. 💜🤗💐

[Faith-and-Hope]

Travelling on a bus at the mo @Zoe7 .... light dusting of snow on everything ....

Post some pic when I can.

💗

[Decadian]

Hi @Former-Member

Thanks for filling me in - yes - it is hard to explain how our emotions - I am not sure about MI - I am learning a lot - for me I have had trouble overcoming the past - and the on-going nonsense of TS - but yes - I have coped much better with this time of year -

But this has taken years - and so much family conflict was involved - and all I can say really that will help is that it did take years - and PTSD is hard to reconcile - I can run into a bad patch that can excalate - and maybe this will happen again - but Cognitive Behaviour Therapy seems to be helping

For you - living alone in your head - aw - that sounds traumatic - I have no idea what that would be like - unless I was to compare it to the years when my children were young and their father used to travel alternate weeks and my son's behaviour was more than challenging - and I would burn out

I have memories of lying in bed at night screaming for help. Whether I was really screaming or dreaming that I was screaming I don't know - but before I got some help with my son I was in a terrible place - and that's all I can compare your "living inside your head and giving power to your demons" was like because I honestly felt as if I was living through some kind of psychic night - and as you say - it was really hard to explain how terrifying that was

Yes - it is good to share that after all these decades I am finding so peace - it has been a long time and I think I really could not do it until my mother died and I was free to remember so many repressed memories and I also wish that calm for you - it may not take as long - we are all different after all - and we all face our demons differently

I am behind with the posts but I will not try and even read all of them - that is not the idea of the site at all - we can only read some of them and answer those that we have time for - I will be probably stop soon and go to bed - I have decided to try going to bed earlier and getting up earlier - and hoping to stop sleeping so much

All the best Teej - I like reading your posts - you are a person who has a rough road but you are always trying - and after all - whatever our best is - that is all we can do and I am sure you are doing that

Dec

[Former-Member]

I'm excited @Faith-and-Hope, did you say SNOW! Definitely be loomingbout for your pics. Might get my 'white christmas' yet thanks to you 🙂

My FRIDAY FEAST tonight wasn't worth posting - just baked beans on toast with grilled cheese on top. And a chai late. xox

[Former-Member]

I had a crappy hungry jacks meal tonight @Former-Member, it's what my son wanted after footy training. 😳😧I'm glad you got the chai latte. 💜🤗

[Former-Member]

Hi again @Shaz51....

My partner found this article that deals with the kidneys in particular from the pcrm (physicians committee for responsible medicine) website - http://www.pcrm.org/health/health-topics/nutrition-and-renal-disease

There is always hope & it might be best to discuss this with your specialist &/or gp - whoever is receptive - I am especially surprised that they said there is nothing you can do for borderline diabetes as many nutritionist & dietitian can help with this - even if they do not advocate a whole food plant based diet... 

I wish you the best & I know you do a good job caring for your hubby & I can only imagine he would be anxious about your health too..

I care xx 

Ahimsa - Namaste,

Anna

[Former-Member]

Thank you @Former-Member 

I'm glad you got through a bad day & I love your words to @Former-Member - I need them too, but yes so hard to always put into action. I can't sleep due to what happened today.... 

Sending strength & hugs 

Also thank you @Shimmer 

Ahimsa - Namaste,

Anna

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member, @Decadian, enjoyed reading these two very REAL posts here just now. Youre two of my longest big inspirations on the forums, with @Appleblossom, and F&H. So glad you're all here tonight 🙂