Another night of voice hearing. It's really wearing me down.

[Queenie]

For the past two days, I've been hearing voices more often and more intense than normal. I did own up and tell my Mrs and her response was listen to music in an effort to drown them out. It's really eroding me psychologically, as it's not the volume but the content in what they are speaking. I've been crying and I feel so ashamed of that because I really thought I was on top of things other than my life stress and paranoia surrounding my forum dilemma. I feel this overwhelming feeling of terror. But I am determined not to give in, no matter what my voices say.

They're really wearing me down. Are there any other voice hearers which have suggestions for coping?

[Eden1919]

Hi @Queenie I always have lots of other noises going on lie sometimes i will listen to music and watch tv at the same time then there is so much noise that if i hear anything i can just pretend it was the tv or something like i will tell myself it was nothing and try and ignore it. or sometimes i will actually ask them to stop which is weird but it sometimes works. or do you have any PRN that could help if you do. i am not sure though i would suggest keeping busy though and being with other people as much as possible. 

[Queenie]

Thanks @Eden1919 for replying.

I am currently listening to loud music on the music channel on the tv, but I can still hear these horrible voices telling me to harm myself. I don't have any PRN prescribed to me so I cannot rely on relief from medication. It's pretty overwhelming and been getting worse in the past few hours. 

I've been distracting myself by reading and replying to others' posts. That makes me feel useful in a way.

[Appleblossom]

Hi @Queenie Not sure what to say but thought I post something visual as distraction.

[Eden1919]

@Queenie hmmm is there anyone around you can talk to like physically cause sometimes that helps distract me more than just music.... other than that i guess just keep trying everything you can sometimes you just have to wait these things out. are you getting much sleep or are the voices keeping you up?

[Queenie]

@Eden1919 I told Mrs Queenie earlier. That is who suggested I come into our bedroom and listen to music loudly. She is in the lounge watching an old movie on the other tv. She also reads my posts on this forum (my forum dilemma). 

[Queenie]

@Appleblossom can't wait to see what the picture is. The Edo period is also known as the Tokugawa period. I remember that from studying Japanese in high school 27 years ago.  

[Eden1919]

@Queenie oh ok I see well maybe try and have a chat with her or something if she is up to it. or does exercise help sometimes that helps me..... or maybe even do you have like a room or something that you can turn into a safe room where you can keep a whole bunch of comfort items like blankets pillows books and stuff that can bring you comfort then you can just go there and sit and maybe it might be good idk it is just a thought anyway hopefully you can find something is it just voices or is it other things too like beliefs and stuff?

[Queenie]

At the moment @Eden1919, it is just voices. In the past, I've had some beliefs which some people have thought were strange or odd. I don't think I am doing anything particularly strange though at the moment. I get regular exercise by swimming every second day (80 laps at the moment). The exercise is kind of weird, in that I can still hear voices sometimes under the water. That is how I know they aren't real and must be just my stupid mind going into overdrive. 

I have our bedroom which is my safe place. I have my gaming consoles, tv, computer, foxtel and loads of pillows, blankets and soft toys in there. I have my favourite soft toy which is a stuffed caterpillar. Downstairs, I have my art studio but I've not spent a lot of time in there of late as it is too cold in there and I'm not allowed to turn a heater on.

[Eden1919]

@Queenie I am glad you have a safe space to go to. that must be annoying even hearing them underwater. i hope you can find some relief soon when is your next doctors appointment? perhaps they can help adjust your meds.