Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

[hiddenite]

I have contacted 1800 respect and been in contact with suicide line. But for me they are a band aid not a solution.
Suicide line are really helpful they even asked me to check in daily with them just to get through another day. Something to aim for. They don't judge and really get how bad things are for me.
I have tried I really have. Just exhausted and overwhelmed.

[Former-Member]

I know you are trying every day 🙂 i wish i could help! Yes I have found the Suicide Call back line to be really helpful too and non judgemental too, but yes, agree.. its not about long term solutions but it does get you to another day...

[hiddenite]

Thanks for understanding Lj
I hope your day has been ok
stay strong and take care
karen

[Ellie]

Hiddenite, have you looked into Dialectical Behaviour Therapy? It may be the very thing that will take you out of all this pain and suffering. It works very well with suicidal people.

[Former-Member]

Hi Karen,

Just wanted to check in and see how you are going today? Sounded like yesterday was exhausting but you were trying hard at getting through.

Take care

AB1

[hiddenite]

Hi AB1
Still here broken my days in to hours. Plan to distract. Exhausted having to hold safety all the time. I wish things would just stop.
take care
karen

[hiddenite]

Hey Ellie
Good suggestion but I have become so unwell now that I can't help myself. I cannot manage another professional giving up on me.
All I do now is isolate myself from triggers unable ti be around anyone.
karen

[Former-Member]

Breaking days down into 'do-able' time sounds like a great plan as does distraction and avoiding triggers. Sounds to me like you are doing ALOT to help yourself.

Take care

[hiddenite]

Doesn't seem enough. Can't even make a phone call.
I don't know where to go for help , there just doesn't seem to be a solution for me.

[Ellie]

A good DBT instructor won't ever give up on you, but of course the biggest step is in actually getting yourself into a place where you believe that.

If only I could say or do something that might help, yet I feel so powerless.

Ellie.