Over The Edge

[Zoe7]

I'm on the couch with Toby now spread out on his back  He is a sweetheart  His little legs are resting on me @Maggie. Toby occasionally barks in his sleep - he is so loud that it makes me jump so high it is a wonder there aren't holes in the ceiling lol Hugs to both you and your fur baby 

[Maggie]

@Zoe7 My baby tucks her little legs under me. She's so fragile I'm scared she'll break. Rest well. 

[Zoe7]

awww cute @Maggie You rest well too 

[Maggie]

@Former-Member Just popping my head in hoping you are doing okish. Thinking of you.

[Former-Member]

Hello dear @Maggie and @Zoe7

Thank you for your kind thoughts and support. I am doing okish today my friend. Thank you for the lovely pic, it really gave me a lift. My daughter has gone funny and is in a bad mood refusing to speak or clean up after herself. Have no to clue as to why. I did relent and drive her to work yesterday as I felt guilty even though sick, but it's made no difference. I don't feel guilty now as her mood is not our fault. Nothing has changed on our end. If she moves out like this I will just have to accept it. I am tired of being held to ransom emotionally for no reason. But I may need your support at that time. Don't know why she is so cold, she may get over it. But the atmosphere is depressing. 

I suppose deep down I am scared of never hearing from her again or for her to go missing. It has happened before and the mental torment of this is beyond words. I am scared of going through that again. But at the same time I have done nothing wrong and am tired of this emotional and mental abuse hovering over me. It's not fair and it damaging. How can I stop it from bringing me down? Any advice would be appreciated. 

So life goes on. My husband is down the road and picked up my angel cross stitch. He said the framing etc looks fantastic. If he is impressed it has to be good. He asked the framers how much to frame his original aboriginal paintings - their costs are so reasonable. I will have to take a photo of my angel in natural sunlight so the flash doesn't not reflect off the glass - this may take a few days but will get a pic up as soon as possible.

How has your day been? Thanks for being such a good friend ❤️xx

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member I have been here before with you when you have had to deal with the torment of your daughter 'going missing' and also treating you so badly. I not only remember how totally hopeless you felt but also when you came to the conclusion (then) that you could not continue to live your life with the constant pain that resulted from your daughter's actions and although you very much love and care for her - her 'mistakes' and behaviour could not continue to affect your life as you could not have a 'life' of your own if that continued. This does not make it any easier to deal with but I wanted to give you back a little persepctive of the cycle that you get stuck in with your daughter @Former-Member 

Previously you have been able to 'pick yourself up' when you have been able to take a step back and think more objectively around the 'situation'. You have also found happiness in being around people - either friends or volunteering - I know that you are probably not physically well enough at the moment to volunteer but can you visit a friend for a little while just to change the environment you are in?

Whatever happens @Former-Member I will sit with you and support you just as you have done so many times for me - with love and hope that things will get better for you 

[Former-Member]

Hello @Zoe7 - thank you so much for being there. I know I can count on you, @Maggie@Faith-and-Hope@utopia and others. 

This is a cycle I have to break - I get a bit stronger each time round but it still hurts. And yes, I do pick myself up when I think about the wrong done to me. As long as my daughter is safe and I know where she is, is the main thing.

I am volunteering tomorrow so that should help. Myself and husband are making progress there for the better which makes me feel good and more fulfilled. Helps ease that pain lingering in there that I have to carry.

My daughter is moving in two weeks - which gives more time to part on more positive terms (fingers crossed). Your a good person @Zoe7 and I so appreciate your support ❤️xxxx

[Maggie]

@Former-Member I'm so sorry things have got so bad for you. @Zoe7 Has been with you before and she and I and others will always be here with and for you no matter what. Sometimes getting it off your chest can help, so talk it out. Shout it out, kick a few things around if it helps. You are a person too, remember that, I know you are a mum, but you don't have to be her door mat. Respect from your own adult child is needed, respect.

Its hard coming from an abused childhood to have a good self image, but you have done more than your best. Remember the beach dreams and they will come in time.

Looking forward to seeing the Angel. 

I had a mud throwing fling a few mths ago. For the first time in my life I felt rage. Let's throw a few mud balls at the building. No one gets hurt, lots of mess, and a good hose down after can be just as much fun. Let me know if you are up for it. I have noticed my new neighbours have kept their distance. Lol.

Im heading off to bed, glad the day is ending. Sending a warm hug my friend. Rest well.

[Zoe7]

You are already sounding more objective and more positive than you have in previous posts @Former-Member - WTG  I am so pleased you are still volunteering - it definitely has it's own rewards for you  You know you have my support and will continue to do so as long as you need 

[Former-Member]

Thank you again @Zoe7 and @Maggie - I will always be there for you both too ❤️

@Maggie - you cracked me up with your mud slinging 🤣😂. I could of imagined the neighbours faces haha

Lets release some tension go.......