I can’t cope

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

What's happening for you hun?

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

Im just sitting here crying. I don’t want to work anymore. I don’t want to be home. I don’t want anything. I don’t want to be alive. 

I feel alone, sad, despondent, scared, uneasy, hurt.

[tyme]

Are you at work at the moment @Captain24 ?

I know how much you used to look forward to working. I'm so sorry things have turned. Do you think it is the work issue?

Or do you think it's your view of work?

Or is it the things that have recently happened?

[Captain24]

I got home from work at 7:45 @tyme. I go back tomorrow night. 

Ive lost all my confidence at work. Im not good enough. I’m useless. It’s embarrassing how bad I am.  

I don’t think it’s just work. I think work is a really big factor. I don’t see much that’s good in my life. Work was my escape and now it’s a big factor of my

life. 

So much is going through my head. It’s distressing. 

[Captain24]

I am so tired. I had a good sleep but have woken up really groggy. 

Is it my depression? Is it the noise in my head? Is it exhaustion from working? Is it just the fact that I’m down right useless? Is it the hopelessness? Is it because I’m not worthy of being alive? Or isn’t a combination of all of the above? 

[ElephantEar3]

Hey @Captain I'm around this morning if you want a chat? Sounds like a crappy combo of feelings this morning

[Shaz51]

Hugs my friend 🧡 @Captain24 , sitting with you 

Hello @ElephantEar3 😊

[Captain24]

I feel so much negativity @ElephantEar3. I feel like there is nothing positive in my life other than my dogs. It just feels all too hard right now. I know ‘feelings aren’t facts’ but it doesn’t stop the hurt inside. 

[ElephantEar3]

I think most of deal better with facts than feelings, eh?

Is there anything we can do to help? Hi @Shaz51 ! Maybe we can get a discussion going to switch focus onto what we enjoy?

[Captain24]

I’ve just been to the Remembrance Day service. @ElephantEar3 

Im about to head home and go to bed for nightshift.

Feelings just over rule. I am getting better at reframing but I just don’t believe it. 

How are you going?