Relief from suffering

[Alessandra1992]

That is a beautiful prayer Happyness.

[Happyness]

Hello

I carry a heavy burden
And I hope you don't mind me sharing it

Two of my past female friends
Had an abortion

I think about them sometimes
And it makes me sad

Obviously I'm not the father of the two aborted children

I don't understand my feelings
Since I didn't know them that well

But I still consider them friends

Even though I might not see them again

Again
I don't understand feeling close to them
Even though I may not see them again

But sometimes I get sad
And feel emotions of loss

I hope people can feel my need
To talk about it

I know it's a taboo topic
And
I hope you can feel my sense of loss
That they felt comfortable sharing their loss with me

Please be in prayer for them
If you do this sort of thing

I hope that their sense of loss
Is not to great
And they can move forward

Regards
Happyness
😞

[kristin]

Hi Happyness,

Thanks for sharing your prayer. Here is a poem I wrote when stuggling with similar issues of feeling lost and alone, I hope you like it.

Road of the Cross

Like a kn-ife bl-ade of light
Illuminating the darkness
The road of the cross
Blazes like a beacon
Beckoning me
Urging me onwards

Often I stray
Away from Your path
Into the blinding
Unrelenting darkness.
I blunder around
Trying to find my own way

Your assurance, ever-present;
When I remember
To call out for You -
Is though I may be lost to myself
You always know
Exactly where to find me

When I take up my sword
You ask me to lean on Your word
When I rage with self-righteous anger
You call me to bare my self
And go forth clothed
In Your love and righteousness

These things I can never do alone
But Your gift of Immanuel
Is that You are beside me
And within me, eternally,
Every stumbling step of the way
As I long for You to shape my being

You promise to be my guiding Light
Nourishment for my journey
Rest when I am weary to death
My rock to stand upon in good times
And cling to, limpet-like,
In the maelstroms of life

Sometimes I am so weighed down
By the wounds of this world
I forget to offer You all I can -
And then all I am
To take up instead - Your gift
The lighter burden of the cross

Kristin© 2013

PS Sorry about the weird editing with hyphens in some "bad" words - I thought this was fixed but apparently not!

[Happyness]

I'll be straight to the point
and
hope people can try to understand
what I am getting at

People think they are God
But who can be higher than our God

And

Will do anything they can to get to the top

Are we in control
That we are Gods?

Or is there some higher power
That
Is in control

I know I just lost a lot of people

But
I do not think I am a God

I search in my heart
All the time
For a better life
And not suffer so much

I hope this post is accepted
And people can understand
My desperation
For consolation
And Peace

Peace in my heart
And
Love in my soul
I pray
😞

I'm desperate for you my God
Please console my brokenness
And fill me
Where I am empty
My God

I hope this post isn't too much

🙂

[kato]

I am not a religious believer. But I find comfort
In spirit, the true gods are not the ones we might think
But comfort from the dark
A light that we can sense
truth be told my spirit seeks forgiveness
From the hollowness of my grief
I have not done right or wrong
But I have done what I believe
Your sorrow you feel
Is disbelief that others do not seek
The enlightenment that you speak

I struggle with religion yet your words speak to me
I too feel sorow for the children that you speak of.
Mine comes from another place one that is full of pain.

I understand how your feeling as I will explain
my wife is a sufferer of the most unusual things
Her life is but young but her troubles are many

Dealing and coping with so much frustrations at what
She cannot explain
We cannot have children we discovered
More then 10 years ago at the age of 23 that our lives would not be full of our own little reflections

When at 23 you get told these unusual things
they are confronting with lots of disbelief
ridicule and sorrow
When others recieve
the joy

Her body is weakened her mind is getting worse
I find myself seeking knowledge and support

I do not find myself religiously asking
But when everywhere you turn
They signs are loud and clear
Then there is

Something higher than me
In my eyes
everyone has got such devotion to this
and
That

Yet it pains for me
I hope he still hears me when she is asleep
I pray for her to heal
I pray for me to feel
I pray for each and every friend
I pray for the strangers I see in the street
I pray that everyone is looked after amd find what they all seek

I do not seek forgiveness or religion

But everywhere I turn he finds me
My resolve is not religion but spirituality
I like what you write
Happyness
I know you are struggling
Please lord
Find my friend
And help him with everything
Let him know how
To help
To heal

Happyness I hope this makes sense to you as your posts did for me

I apologize if it makes no sense

[Happyness]

Thank you so much for your words Kato

Your words speak for themselves

I feel humbled

I don't need to add anything

I might seem to make some sense

But today I feel so empty

Can anyone suggest one of the other threads for me

Every day is such a struggle

Thank you for your support

[Neb]

What a bunch of poets!! Lovely stuff.

[CherryBomb]

@Happyness what type of thread of you after? I'll try and point you to one. 

[JubileeJohnson]

Kato! Your last post on this thread was beautyful. And you hoped it made sense??? Clearly it made a lot of sense to Happyness. And, I think, the most sensible post of yours that I've read.

Happyness: I was raised a Catholic. Lapsed later in life. Now my 'illness' has allowed me a very different and closer relationship with 'God.' S/He who cannot be named is my mate, my 'bro.'

One day all of those millions of people who worship Him might come realise that Jesus 'suffered' a Bi-polar Affective Disorder.

"Three out of four people with a mental illness report that they have experienced stigma. Stigma is a mark of disgrace that sets a person apart." www.mentalhealth.wa.gov.au/mental_illness_and_health/mh_stigma.aspx

"...history tells us that many ecstatics bear on hands, feet, side, or brow the marks of the Passion of Christ with corresponding and intense sufferings. These are called visible stigmata. Others only have the sufferings, without any outward marks, and these phenomena are called invisible stigmata." www.newadvent.org/cathen/14294b.htm

I'm not going to go on about this. It will end up an essay otherwise. I will say in conclusion; that too many 'mental people' report thinking they are God (I did too once - in the throes of mania) for there not to be something, just something in it.

Take courage, and peace be upon Him.

[Happyness]

Men go to war

But is there something more

Men go to war

But is there something more

Than a closed door

Is there something more

Than a than a closed door

When men go to war


Peace