Scared.

[Gypsy7]

Hi I've just had full on 2and bit weeks medically with seizures and mentally rollercosting. Going up and down quite extremes. Last two days I slept 6 hours and spring cleaned etc situation is lack of sleep can affect and bring on seizures. So I presented at ed this morning after advice from mental health after hours Friday night. Well doctor medical was concerned if I was mentally getting unwell I said I just needed sleep. During this process she decided rather than give me a night of meds to sleep to get act team to come over. Problem is I had history with this one act worker months ago after he advised me to stop taking meds very convincing argument why meds are sometimes worse for us and healthy living can do just as much. I'm aware of my illness but the way he babbled on I was convinced I could get better without meds. Well that didn't work. So I was cautious to speak to him at all. Then 3 hrs of waiting he brushed past me as I was standing outside and I said are u seeing me today. Rudely he said no. I was shocked tried to tell myself to wait but I couldn't bare to talk to him. I plummeted and felt like crap and not worth their time. And walked home. Still haven't got to sleep just got over counter sleeper. Lots of acquaintances also have told me horror stories of this worker. Problem ATM is I'm scared I'm going to go into seizures again and I was status last time. This town has great people workers etc but the few are the ones that cause us stigma and shame and away from seeking help. I got NGO service to attend tommorow with a very good worker. But twice I been ambulances to hospital from seizures there and I don't want that shame and guilt for upsetting other members. I still believe I'm going through a mixed state. Got gp on Wednesday so between now and then I hope I manage to keep out of hospital. I also have had no contact with my sons. My brain is exhausted ATM and body even more so. And I've done all sleep hygiene hadn't had any caffine. Last time I had seizure episode I was in hospital and icu for 3 months. I have do many stressors but doing my best to distract but I need rest to be well. Ahhhh

[Former-Member]

Hi @Gypsy7

I have no idea what to say to you or how to help, but I wanted to let you know that I read your post and am thinking of you and I hope you can get through the next few days. Is there any chance you can see your GP earlier? Did you manage to sleep a little bit last night?

Take care.

[Appleblossom]

I have suffered with sleep issues for a long time. @Gypsy7 Take care.

Keep reaching out.

I think it is horrid you had a bad experience, but it can help to put the story out here.