i found myself broken

[MDT]

hey @ohanais it really sucks that you are in the midst of a trial at the moment

I've only been on these forums for a few weeks now but I can see how they are having a positive effect on you which is good!

Always remember that you are not a burden. Especially on here. No one is making anyone come on here to chat about their experiences so it's okay. You are not burdening no one here 🙂

It's always good to speak about what's going on for us too so I commend you on that!

Keep speaking up 🙂 Thanks for including me in the new post too 🙂

Recently it's a bit tough in my own life too so I can kind of empathise with you on that one.

Take care of yourself 🙂

[Maggie]

Hi @ohanais Ive seen you around but not spoken personally to you. Sorry life is so hard for you right now, I think we all hear you when you say you don't want to be a burden, funny how we all get it. You are worth everything you need. Stay safe.

[Mazarita]

@ohanais, I noticed you had left and felt sad. Welcome back! 

I too have been in very dark places, and hear your pain. Sending love and healing. 

[Appleblossom]

Hello @ohanais

I am another train traveller.

I often read but sometimes I also just like to stare out the window or people watch!

Sometimes that becomes social.  I had a lovely spontaneous moment last night on a very crowded bus where the jolting made us all laugh and be friends for 20 mins.

[ohanais]

@Former-Member

The people on here are good people, just struggling. I always felt like a bad person for feeling for being the way I am, because that is how I was brought up to feel like. I was brought up and taught that feelings are bad and deserves punishment and that you should simply choose happiness.

Thank you very much x

[ohanais]

@Zoe7

There is always a feel or need to reply - because obviously I wouldn't want to seem I am rude or ignoring anyone. You have been a huge help for me 💕💕💕

I am just questioning the best place I should be right now - due to the reason that I do not have any supports in the community and find myself feeling unsafe and at breaking point. So really, in these situations, the only choice is hospital.. but it is difficult as my family's reaction is never good and let's face it - nobody wants to be in hospital or to get to that point. I am totally sick of finding myself always back in the same place but I have been abandoned by everything and everyone else , so I truly don't know what else they would expect from me. 😞

[ohanais]

@soul

I love The Beatles. thankyou for this quote - I will cherish it and keep it nearby when I find myself lonely and a bother.

The response has taken my breath away - I feel so close to tears by just seeing how everyone has been so loving and understanding in my disappearance and reappearance.

Please know the same back 💜 I really do hate always talking about myself, let me know a bit about @soul

[ohanais]

I really appreciate it wholeheartedly @Faith-and-Hope 💜💕❣

I need you all right now more than you may ever know. Thank you for being there. Just seeing your avatar come up is such a relief - I always love hearing from you. I hope you are well Faith-and-Hope , as I always wish

[ohanais]

@TAB

It would be awkward to have two people trying to fit in the same shoes, wouldn't it? lol.. but we can share similar shoes and have similar patterns or colours. Maybe even the same sized shoe. We all have our similarities in which we can truly understand at an empathetic level but also have our differences. That's the beauty of it all x

[soul]

Hi @ohanais - your Forum family are here for you - giving what they can and hopefully what you need. Glad that you are seeing the love and are feeling it too. You matter - don't forget that.