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Re: Trying makes it worse

Lol.. Getting there @TAB did jobs... Got distracted by internet... Back to jobs again now! 

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Still awake. 3.33am to much on my mind. Going to sleep now. Good night everyone. Happy 100 pages. 

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Hey @EternalFlower @TAB @Appleblossom 

 

Spolier alert @TAB this post might end up being deep n meaningful _DNM. You are veryb welcome to read, i know its not always your thing. good toread that you are feeling lighter on the mornig thread yesterday. Keep on hangin on.

 

my morning has been full of disappointment re cat team. Paid to appear is how i would describe. the 2 previous days, CAT has been genuine and invested. it was opposite this morning. typically, ireally needed the help today. ive been feeling unsafe with hm mood switches as he is withdawing from substance. he literally abuses me in front of CAT. i felt very invisible. i have sent about 1000 text msg to his mum this am, venting. its yucky & upsetting to talk about. So yeh. long story short, i am the one that exposed his use, once i became aware. Consequences have been implemented that make further use basically impossible. Therefore, in his mind, I am the source of all that is wrong in his life. I think thats a pretty typical response in this situation. its really embarassing for me to write all this. i wonder what y'all think of me......i could do better...im a victim...etc etc. believe me, if there were easy access to safe and affordable housing for me, it is an option iwould seriously consider. yep, its all yuck & is starting tomake me sad writing about it.

 

 

im not super straight edge. i do draw the line at living with hard, extremely addictive drug use. 

 

anyway........thx for reading xx

 

chat later if you are around @EternalFlower 

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from what little I know @maddison  once people have been in the CAT system it is my straightforward for them to be be sectioned again.

I dont do illegal drugs. I am am functional enough in my own way, but fell in with some really bad people more that once. Time am thinking of was when was boarding with this person whose life was mostly secret to me at that stage, except what they wanted me to know. anyway, their family chasing after her for something she had done, locked herself in house. then  cops and ambos came.they made up story and said whatever you do dont let them in house, so them went and hid in bathroom, presumably using up whatever they had left.

I gave in in the end, they got carted off, spoke couple days later, went and visited them in hosp. then I hung around in one form or another prob another 4-5 years throwing money at them and their habits, getting involved in weird situations that could have been a lot worse, and costing me tens of thousands of dollars when I bothered to add it up once.

I made a lot of bad choices over and over again. they would go loopy , come and find me at other end of house not bothering anyone then start an argument and throw me out as it was Their name on lease .. 

Get out now prob the best thing to do, not sure how, but sooner than later before things get worse and they will

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Hey @maddison, you are going through so so much ❤️

 

It takes a lot of courage to speak about abuse of any kind, and to try to find that critical support. I'm so sorry you were let down this morning, I sincerely hope you continue to reach out for that support when you need to. 

 

I'm concerned when you express feeling unsafe at the moment with your partner. I'm not sure if you have tried any DV related supports before, but here is a list of services by state if it could be helpful to you; https://www.respect.gov.au/services/ 

 

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Thanks @TAB You didn't have to reply & also share your story - but you did💙🩴

 

It helped me, reading your story & knowing you have been in this situation where you feel like you are the 'poor sap with the big heart' . Doing things, & being in situations that don't allign with your true nature.

 

I hate talking about all this crap, because it's BS to me - not overly empathetic in this particular situation!

 

But yeh, it sux when others choices put us in these horrible positions. I know your words are coming from a place of care & kindness...goodedness...! (See, I told you) *edit

 

Haha. Thx 4 ur support. Dreary doesn't suit this pretty face🧚‍♀️😄 I will find my way out.

 

@Appleblossom @EternalFlower @Former-Member thanks for any kind thoughts. I honestly hate talking about this crap. Please don't mention it💜 send me positive vibes that I can get him sectioned as @TAB mentioned. I really need a few days without him around🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

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Ohh sending hugs to you @maddison , @EternalFlower , @TAB , @Appleblossom , @Former-Member ❤❤

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yeah i dont want to talk about it anymore either @maddison  I moved on by luck of fortune, well to others similar, but they had jobs so I could quite get my head around that, but thats done with as well now, well years ago tbh

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all good @Shaz51  ancient history for me . Said my bit and am leaving it at that.

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👍 @TAB