Trying makes it worse

[Appleblossom]

Bottom line with NDIS… @EternalFlower @it’s your choice and control. Find another therapist. You can take those steps without the opinion of the team,. Maybe make it a fai accompli. They probably realise you need someone in that role, but they shouldn’t decide who fills the role.

[TAB]

prob could get away with that in a secure setting I suppose, but anywhere else going off at anyone let alone clients is not acceptable or remotely professional .hes probably past caring.do them a favour and report them lol 

@EternalFlower  then they can go back to their main job as prison guard lol

[Jynx]

Oh wow @EternalFlower that is horrible. No one, regardless of whatever 'justification' is thrown around, deserves to be screamed at. If he is unable to humble himself long enough to apologise to you for it, I wouldn't wanna trust him either. 

Do you get much of a choice in whether you have to keep seeing him?

I know how hard it can be to advocate hun, we're here to help out however we can!! Whether that's a space to brain storm, or vent, or some encouraging or reassuring words, we gotchu 💜

[EternalFlower]

hi @TAB i have not seen another job where screaming is acceptable evevr - shame therapists get away with it. 😞

I don't know if I could report it, I'm very scared of such things. But I wander, after six years in the mental health system, if maybe I should report some of my horror stories. I don't see that it will "help" overall and improve the system, but maybe it would help me, not feel so upset and frustrated, as if nothing I say matters.

@Jynx I very much doubt he will apologise. 
I will hve to see him at least 1 more time. As it stands he had asked me to write him a formal apology - and then I said how can I do that when i'm not allowed to email him.
I think he will expect (and demand) in session that I write him an apology which is all kinds of sad 

[Jynx]

@EternalFlower that legit makes me mad. The discomfort that can create internally is the last thing you're needing right now! Ugh, sorry that this is happening to you. 

I do like the 'malicious compliance' vibes of telling him you're not allowed to email though 😎😂

[EternalFlower]

@Jynx lol thanks. Hd to look that up but great reference 🙂

so annoying for me, i was going to write the apology, i honestly don't care at all, i just feel like he needs me to nod my head and be agreeable and as a traumatised person, i don't even care to do it - would  just fawn and write literally whatever he wants.

my gp said not to write it

i hope he doesn't force me

[EternalFlower]

the formal apology suggestion is very boarding school in the 1980s... (i wasn't born then lol)

so i dont really understand his whole approach

maybe he wants me to get a typewriter and dictate a self flagulating letter about my sins

[EternalFlower]

@Appleblossom thank u

[Jynx]

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@EternalFlower wrote:

maybe he wants me to get a typewriter and dictate a self flagulating letter about my sins

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LOL I hope it's okay that this made me giggle @EternalFlower 

Very true, I am hearing that your gp is on your side in this though?

I hope he doesn't try to force you either!

[Appleblossom]

@EternalFlower I learned to manage NDIS by networking with others. Also researching therapeutic alliances or therapeutic relationships… 

whether complaining will help… idk…. But I do like the idea of not… giving… hurtful people, space in my head…. I ruminate a bit, but also try and discharge the energy, after trying to understand the reasons for rumination… ie letting me know… it is not a good situation… and to move on.