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A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

Japanese ...?! Would put me on my knees ?( tricky to learn pronounse.....just don't even think of writhing !!!
Of course I have never learnt them ( ADHD?)
However do like the idea ....
o and have a small book on Norwegion .,,now that will be " real" handy travelling around the world won't it?!
BPs do get fascinated with words in songs and poems though I'm sure...
Like Grace Jones
"Demolition Man"
Looking like a woman
Feeling like a man
I'm nobodies friend
I'm a demolition man

You kept on coming
Like a moth to the flam
You kept on coming
You should have ran!
I'm nobodies friend
I'm a demolition man!
( and check out this funny line)
Your Marriage is a tradgerty
But it's not my concern
Your sex life complications
Are not my fascinations ( ha ha)
Etc etc



Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

Traffic " Shoot out at the Fantasy factory " is a good album with an interesting front cover graphics .... Traffic had 3 singer song writers
In the group:>
Steve Windwood
Jim Capadi
And ....can't remeber....????

Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

Stan
Check out Traffic ( band name) album " Shoot Out at the Fantsay Factory
Sought of a Jazz rock fashion
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Has 3 singer song writers
Steve Windwood
Jim Capaldi
The third can't remember
Need to play Steve woods cds one is better than the other.,, the best has
rock love dance ballads

Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

Don't know how that camera stuff was in there....that's weird?

Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

you can edit the post I think to remove it - I saw it there, wondered if maybe you;d 'copied' it and inadvertently pasted it? Is weird!

Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

Hi @AlienBP2

It would be great if you could edit out the camera stuff, as it seems like it's not meant to be there.

Within your post, you should be able to see a 'edit' link. It will allow you to edit and re-post, without removing what you want to keep.

 

Thanks.

Nik

Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

Aha somehow a post I put on another site about camera drones has ended up here?
So just ignore that post

Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

I have been feeling real low for some days. No energy-feeling that nothing is gonna change so what's the point? Failure - unless - fake - you get the picture but I'm planning to end my own life. I don't know where to get help! Lost at sea

Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

@stan, I'm so sorry to hear how you're feeling today. It sounds like things are quite overwhelming but please remember that thoughts about suicide tend to come in waves. I know it’s hard to imagine right now but you will feel better. Can I please ask you to call one of the following numbers to talk about what’s going on. They're there to listen and can be a great support:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467

Samaritans 135 247

Mensline 1300 78 99 78

Re: A Poem: On living with bi-polar affective disorder

@stan - So sorry to hear you feel lost at sea sea, gosh, i know that experience. Rudderless, no wind in the sails, no map, or compass, can see no point in going on, I have been there MANY times. The great grey waves crashing over.... thinking you are a failure,  a fake. Yet, nowadays I can catch myself and realise this is not helpful thinking, or my partner will say This is not true-thinking" or says "this is not helpful thinking". That is a great help because I then give myself permission to think something different.

I look at it this way...  to mix up a few metaphors.

Image one:
Our thinking is the climate

Our emotions are the weather

The climate (thinking) forms the weather (emotion/mood/feelings)

If there is a storm, find a safe port and ride out the wild weather/storm.
Talk to a habour master to calm the mind and order our thoughts....

Image two

|We are driving our car (our lives)
We are in the driver's seat.
We climb into the back seat and let the wheel and the gear shift go and the car just careens all over and is going to crash (your thoughts of self harm)
We realise we are going to crash (seeing that thoughts of self harm are dangerous)
We climb back into the drivers seat (as hard as that is)
We slow the vehicle, in a controlled way being excellent drivers! pull over to the side and put the car into NEUTRAL until we are calm, centred and sure of where we are driving to again.
Put in a call to the Roadside Assist for our minds....

When I am thinking I am a failure, false, a waste of space, regretful, remorseful, full of terminal uniqueness... and wanting it all to be over, permanently...  I try to just shift gears, not into 'false-positive' thinking blah blah, but to challenge the thoughts that would have me wanting to chuck my life away. We ARE driving this car, so we CAN shift gears, it can take an immesnse effort, but it can be done. 

This thinking about harm, feeling useless, frail, faulty, false - this is all thinking that causes harm. Alot of this is caused by the bio-chemical soup, but some of it is caused by that deep groove thinking we fall into when we are in whatever verison of our own bio-chemical soup. 

If you can, Stan, step back from the edge and try to reorder your thinking, at the very least - "this is not true-thinking' or whatever one-liner speaks to you clearly that you are struggling and need a help.

You said "Help!" you need to head back to swim between the flags now and find yourself a lifesaver.

Please, Stan, take care of yourSelf - Pick up the phone.

Lifeline Services. 13 11 14

Beyond Blue 1300 22 4636


@stan wrote:
I have been feeling real low for some days. No energy-feeling that nothing is gonna change so what's the point? Failure - unless - fake - you get the picture but I'm planning to end my own life. I don't know where to get help! Lost at sea

(Hey -@Former-Member or @NikNik just FYI)

 

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