A long rave

[Former-Member]

oops yet again trying to reply to @Bunniekins 

warm wishes to @Mazarita @Shaz51 @Bunniekins @eth

I am in a world of my own at the moment...different yet again to the world of my own that I have perhaps lived in..

too deep for some??/////

welcome to the world of mohill..which incidentally I will never change...people matter to me ...

[Shaz51]

hugs @Former-Member 

[Mazarita]

Hi @Appleblossom, good to see you. Congrats on your involvement in the cantata and street opera, they sound fabulous. I do like hearing about your days at the zoo. Hope this year is a good one for you too. 

@Bunniekins, hehe, nothing closet about it. I love Star Trek. I've probably watched more Star Trek in my life than anything else on the screen. Don't know why I love it so much, except I like sci fi. But there's just something that appeals to me about that show. In relation to what you said about getting HDs when you were manic, I too can achieve highly when I'm manic or hypermanic. Pity it's such a crazy state and tends to be followed by crash. Wishing you the mind, body, soul balance you are aiming for this year.

@Former-Member, it's great that you went out to your card group today. Much better than dwelling on anxieties, though it would be very understandable if you did that too. How cool that you are the youngster there, and what lovely feedback. I agree too with equality being a two way street. Your fear is natural, sending you more hugs and love, strength and support. 

[Appleblossom]

Good Luck with your year's projects. @Bunniekins 

I was different in that I was mostly working fulltime while I did my first undergrad.  I was not with the pixies at all ... I got HD in final year too ... but not manic ... I was working in a court or in the tax office ... or in hospitality .. it took a while ... and I exerted a lot of energy .... but I doubt I was manic .. no-one ever said I was and I popped in for regular mh check ups ... it was dreadfully tedious and HARD WORK but grounded me and paid the bills. 

I started using the "away with the pixies" phrase in an ironical manner when I was in a choir  and the conductor was droning on amd I switched off.  I have had a strange life.  Too much early exposure to mh issues in parents damaged me but gave me a strong resilience.

I did not have the distinction between study and work .. both were relevant ... I looked at those people in commerce and just felt sorry for them ... even if some managed to be triillionaires ... nah ... I would not have had their lives. I loved my study and never regretted it, but then started gave piano lessons for 25 years as I had more saleable skiills. 

What is good about life at the moment is that a lot of my values are coming together very well.

Family wise things are still very stressful. It seems to be the way my life is. I have posted a little about it but it is not really my story to tell.  So I concentrate on finding positive things to do with my time and energy that is within my means.

Hi @Former-Member Did not mean to leave you out.

Hi @Former-Member you are a very caring person. It is good if you have found a niche.

[Former-Member]

@Bunniekins I'm ok thanks felt a bit flat earlier today but spent the day with my mum & little girl & have picked up a little since...
We saved a birdy just now ❤️
Poor thing almost had a heart attack in my car though lol
How are you feeling?

[Former-Member]

Hi @Appleblossom How are you?

[Bunniekins]

@Appleblossom Thank you Appleblossom for you wishes for this year same to you too. You are right there is more to life than financial gain and the classics at uni were so interesting. You are obviously a strong woman it comes through in your words to have coped with so much I can only imagine dealing with two parents with mh issues.

Sorry you are having family stresses hoping that improves in the near future for you.

[Bunniekins]

@Former-Member o0o0o0o ... what kind of bird is it? what a kind thing to do 🙂 I am well almost to well I think buzzing a bit lol. 

[Former-Member]

Hi @Mazarita Definately. We were fortunate enough to be approved through housing nsw into a real estate property on a subsidy. But i did notice alot prior coming out of where we were. I don't think anyone deserved to be homeless and with the price of rentals etc these days it is very hard to get a rental.

I was definately stressed out prior. It wasn't a good environment for my daughter because we left that to begin with. I remember literally banging my hand against my head outside (mental state was everywhere) and being so on edge the whole time. I didn't know who i could trust, who they were and geniunely felt unsafe but we are safer now so that's all that matters. It still makes me cry when i see someone without a roof over their own head regardless though. Everyone deserves to feel safe and comfortable in their own home.

[Mazarita]

@Former-Member, I am in private rentals, have been all my life including childhood. I worry a fair bit about housing into the future. Really glad to hear you have a safer place for you and your daughter to live now. I agree it's heartbreaking seeing people on the streets.