Am Not Coping

[Shaz51]

O have tagged you @Faith-and-Hope, @Pepsimax

[Faith-and-Hope]

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@Zoe7 .....

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope and all passing through - not going to tag everyone as I will undoubtedly miss someone and I couldn't handle that at the moment. 

Not doing well still and therefore limiting my time on here to try to cope. I hate change and this one has hit me very hard.

I hope everyone is taking care and supporting each other - will check in again when I feel I can.

Zoe 

[outlander]

@Zoe7

[Faith-and-Hope]

💚💚💚💐💕 @Zoe7 ....

[Zoe7]

Checking in @Faith-and-Hope - have slept most of today - still feeling the backwash of the news - trying to deal with it is definitely not going so well. Had meds last night so I would sleep and have had the effect of those all day - has probably helped numb the pain a bit though. I am safe but have struggled the last 24 hours with it - but it has only been in my thinking and not in my actions. I suppose we take that as a win!

[Faith-and-Hope]

Definitely @Zoe7 ....,

Holding you close in my thoughts Hon.

I have been out and about today with D2.  We arrived at the library a bit late last week for her to take

out the library books

she wanted, and I was bumbling around not achieving things on the computer that I wanted :face_with_rolling_eyes: ..... so today we got

there nice and early and I avoided the computer, so she got her books this time.... !!

It was very cold this morning, 4 degrees at 8am, but the day turned out beautiful, so I was glad to be out of the house.

[Zoe7]

That is great that you got to the library and D2 got the books she wanted @Faith-and-Hope

I have watched a couple of things I had recorded from tv in between sleeping - didn't really take much notice though m- my concentration is not good today. 

Toby has been snuggly and Cat has spent a lot of today outside as it has been nice here too. I couldn't face the day though so doing what I needed to to get through.

It makes me have further doubts about returning to work - I know I won't really know until I get there and do it but if news like this makes me feel this way then how am I going to handle work ...so many doubts in my head atm 

[Faith-and-Hope]

You might wake up tomorrow feeling okay-ish @Zoe7 ..... you have already managed today better than you expected to,   I see your resilience building, slowly, but it’s there .....

Take courage Hon.  Often when something changes that doesn’t seem great, something happens soon after that is very positive ..... this I hope for you now .....

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[Zoe7]

I'm not used to positive things happening Hon so won't be holding my breathe there  @Faith-and-Hope

It takes great resilience to get through so much of what I have done - I recognise that but every one of us has our breaking point and I am feeling like I am there again right now - hoping tomorrow will be a little easier is really all I can do for the time being and getting through tonight!