@Bunniekins the site is not letting me view or answer your recent post on your thread.
That little B&W photo is very me .. but you posted it to @Anastasia
Getting A Diagnosis Meant That My Sister Never Had the Chance to Resolve Her Trauma - Mad In America
https://www.madinamerica.com/2021/12/diagnosis-sister-trauma/?fbclid=IwAR2lrAutcA4HopwI5_EzdYgQf2ZJx...
This is part of my reasons for bringing up trauma rather than diagnoses and labels. Recently I have received a little appropriate kind comment about the death of my father, who died a long time ago. Not sure why I am so lacking in the qualities that bring about supportive comments, is it just that I am so wired to care for others, that I do not seem to need them? idk. I do not mean to reject them. Still few people can even begin to relate to the deaths of my siblings with anything approaching understanding or care. Not people getting megabucks being paid to be kind to me. It seemse to be too mindblowing for them. I was brought up in a vacuum and still often feel in a vacuum, although finally it is less, as I do have some supports in place, but I work hard for worthiness, being worthy of getting support. I know my support wokr is very grateful for me as I have given him heaps and heaps of helpful hints for his young family, yet my biological relationships are all severed and too hard for my natural being to be able to come to the fore and nurture them. That includes my son as he has been so resistant due to attitude of dismissing me, and my daughter and my grandson.
The level of help for my spt wkr revolves in encouraging him setting up NDIS ready company, and heaps of practical child and family friendly ideas ... and tips ... that he acknowledged this week has made a difference. I know I am not a bad person, and did not deserve the stuff that happened, but too many nice people feel comfy implying I did. If I had a tenth of support growing up that most do ,,, even coming from Culturally and linguistically diverse backgrounds and people of colour.
Upset that my Co-oridinator of Supports had to bring her issue ... (she is single) about people of colour into our last session, which is only relevant for her having a flag to wave ... as we also share a European culture that she has decided it is alright to hate, so she pretends she is more of colour than white tho her name is more Dutch than me .... she gets too much money to do that. It is part of what pushes my son into a corner, feeling shame for his so called male white privelege, while denial of his trauma. My heart is always breaking. Grumble Grumble.
At least my spt wkr ... they are very different people (He has 4 kids so is learning to care and love beyond is career and ego aspirations) ... He wrks for his dollars .... and is more intellligent and nuanced and not jargonistic about issues...
Oh when will social justice come ....
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