Living with PTSD (Potentially Triggering Material)

[Faith-and-Hope]

Morning @Former-Member .... 😊💕

There are Looking After Ourselves threads here that contain beautiful calming images and arty stuff if you want to visit but not deal with heavier convos .....

Take care .... 🌷💕

[NikNik]

There is no need to apologise at all @Former-Member - we are sorry we didn't pick it up sooner.

Take care of yourself.

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member    I am so sorry you are not feeling good.  I do understand though and whatever you feel is best for you, you should do.  I hope you come back soon I will miss you.

Be good and remember...   if everything else fails..  

                                      

wiggle your butt.    Sorry just couldn't resist 😄

         Come back for the test...  it's the tie breaker!!

[Appleblossom]

Just a token to thank you for sharing. 

[Zoe7]

Hi @Former-Member I hope you don't  mind me responding to you post.

When I received the notification this afternoon I was not in a very good way but I did read it because I already knew your story from before and I wanted to give you the support again so you knew I was thinking of you. It must have been so difficult for you to edit and rewrite parts of this. I know I have not re-read what I posted. I have told you before but will reiterate again here how brave and inspiring I think you are for posting this. I know how much pain and hurt this part of your life can have on you every single day and it is not easy to deal with and get through. I am not only inspired by your openness but also your courage and strength. I have so much admiration for you and want you to know that I have listened, I have heard you and I am with you.

All my love

Zoe 

[Former-Member]

Thankyou @Zoe7 and @Appleblossom

I actually cant figure out where this post is now sitting.  I know it was taken off line where I was to edit it. Which I have done this afternoon. And once approved it was to go back into the original thread in its original placement.  But that doesnt seem to have happened, so it must still be in limbo?  Which makes me wonder how you guys can even see it.  I'm not sure, but when @NikNik gets in tomorrow, I'm sure she will sort it all out.

I've had a couple of difficult days, with Saturday afternoon and evenng being particularly bad.  Several triggers combined to put me into panic mode, unable to breath or stop shaking and bad chest pains.  All anxiety I know, nothing life threatening of course.  But it took a lot to get things back under control. I was home on my own that day, which probably made things worse, and when I am like that I tend to retreat from any contact at all.  But I am feeling better again today thankfully.  Still feeling quite vulnerable and fragile though.  And badly in need of sleep.  Hopefully tonight.

I'm sorry you've had a badly triggered day Zoe, and my apologies for my part in that.  I see how you are so helpful to so many others here on the Forums and you are truly a wonderful woman, and I am in awe of you and what you have been able to do.  So these kind words from you means a lot to me. Thankyou.  

Sherry xx

[Zoe7]

I'm not sure where it has been put either @Former-Member - but because you tagged me I clicked on the title and it took me to it.

Funnily enough (or not funny) Saturday was my really bad day also. I didn't sleep at all Sat night -faith&hope and teej stayed up with me nearly all night and got me through. I also had one of those nightmares where your whole body (physically and mentally) feels it.

This afternoon I was triggered by something off forum and tried to sleep. That was a mistake - I had a massive flashback and felt the physical pain as muchas the mental pain. Your post came well after that - bad timing maybe - but not thye trigger. That is why I was able to cope with reading it - I couldn't have felt much worse at the time.

I did not want to let anyone know that  that was what was happening because it was extremely intense and I did not know which way I was going to go.As a result I didn't want to alarm or upset anyone - and no-one would have been able to help me at the time - so why put them through anything that could possibly trigger them as well. All that would have done would make me feel worse and would probably have brought me much closer to the edge!

I really hate when I crash so badlly - and so unexpectedly. Sometimes it really it just so difficult to fight through the hurt and the pain. ... and sometimes I really wish I had not survived.

I hope this is not too much for you tonight - so sorry if I have overstepped.

[Former-Member]

Hi to everyone here. Firstly I just want to say that I appreciate all the love and support you have all showed me particularly over the past couple of weeks.  Its been a really difficult time for me, but I know that each and every one of you are also going through an equally tough time.  So you are all beautiful caring people and I love you for that.

@NikNik @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Former-Member

At the moment I think I need to take a short break.  I am feeling really discouraged about things right now.  And dont feel that in my current mood I would be of any help to anybody else.  Or perhaps even cause others pain and anguish, which I certainly dont want.

So for now I will go off line.  I hope I feel in a better position to come back again soon.  I'm only telling you this because I dont want you to worry that I'm suddenly not around.  In the meantime, please know I am thinking of you, wish you well and apologise for any harm I may have unwittingly done you.

Sherry xx    

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member  I'm so sorry... but if you have to make this decision that's fine.  But you don't have to be here for anyone but yourself.  If you just need to post things and get some reassurance, do that.  I, for one, feel for others but I tend to say all the wrong things so I don't try to help because I too feel I will probably end up doing more harm than good, unintentionally.  So please don't think you are alone on that.  Just think of it as being here as company for all of us, and us for you.

As I said, I'm hopeless at times like this, but I just want you to know you have done nothing wrong and I think everyone here, like me, is here for you whenever you want to be.

Take care please.

Tooky.

[Faith-and-Hope]

I agree with what @Former-Member has written @Former-Member .... if you really need to take a break, nobody can argue with that, but please consider staying around ... maybe just 'liking' what appeals to yi