Thanks
@Appleblossom @Maggie @Former-Member
Its no nice being a part of this lovely community. And its the likes of you all which make it the place it is. Hey @Former-Member, I told you you were an intelligent, caring lady ... how caring, sensible and 'right' was all that you just wrote. Thanks heaps. And yes, when I say my BIL, it is in fact my husbands youngest brother. And
@Appleblossom - I so love those flowers, and flowers always remind me of Mum.
At present I keep thinking about all the death dying and sickness which seems to have surrounded me over the past few years and even more so the last few months. My young niece, a close friend (only friend really), my unborn niece, my Mum. And now my BIL. We live opposite sides of the country to my BIL, but we spoke every day. It seems unreal that he is now dying. I only spoke to him the day before he was rushed to hospital after suffering a fall and lying on the ground half the day and night.
Life and death is so unfair. It keeps entering my head ... why them? Why not me ... after all, its me who doesnt want to be here. Its almost as if I am here at their expense. So unfair.
