Living with PTSD (Potentially Triggering Material)

[Former-Member]

Thanks for the hugs @outlander  ... really hope you are okay too, having been in the thick of things trying to pour water on the flames.  🤗

@Zoe7  I've really really stuffed up ... if its not stupidity, then what is it?

[Zoe7]

You really haven't stuffed up Hon - you were being helpful, honest and caring all at the same time. I do know this would be affected you so very much but can we discuss something else to take your mind off it for a while. I know tomorrow is going to be incredibly tough for you without your Mum. What are you going to do to help yourself get through it @Former-Member ?

[Former-Member]

I dont know @Zoe7  💔

[Zoe7]

I am going to be home tomorrow @Former-Member I went to see my Mum last night instead of tomorrow. My sister lives close now so she will spend time with her tomorrow. I didn't want to risk being out on the weekend when we are still in isloation for now.

So I will be around tomorrow if you need Hon 

[Faith-and-Hope]

That's that I am talking about @Former-Member, when things just seem to get trickier ..... but you did step back, you have stepped back, and sitting here together to help each other is, in my opinion, what we do best here, and what the forums are actually all about.  

Being upset, angry, feeling like we didn't handle things well, or feeling that we did the best we could but the misunderstanding kept rolling forward anyway ..... it's normal to feel those feelings, and you are telling us how you feel, which is good for you to do, and good for us to hear to be able to support you.  It's being factual to say that the issue was not resolving in the moment, the other person was distressed and pursuing you for further response ..... which you could not give .....

Hugs and hugs @Former-Member.  Please be gentle with yourself.  It was an awful thing to happen, but a very human one too ..... so putting it cm down and stepping over it is perhaps the best goal now.

Here and listening with you.

💖💐

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope  😔💕

I'm really not dealing with any of this ... and I'm really afraid about the likely consequences of it now.

The forums are really important to me .. they really have been a lifeline, and I have a lot of friends here.

I feel so sick and wrung out, can barely even breathe, and being drowned in tears. 

Just want it not to have happened.  Stupid ... stupid ... stupid.  

[Zoe7]

I am going to suggest something to you now @Former-Member that may be hard for you but I say it with love and care ...maybe now is a good time to stop talking here about everything that has happened tonight. It is not because I think in any way you have done anything wrong but continuing to think you may be 'booted off' is not good for you - it would be increasing your anxiety and I know how quickly we can spiral downwards when we have those fears and thoughts. I do not want you going anywhere and I am certain the community managers will work it all out if there is anything further that nees to be done. To be honest I don't think there is but I do hope you get a check in on Momday. This is going to be a lot for you to sit with but reach out when you need to to us - we are here for you. 

[Appleblossom]

Not stupid @Former-Member 

A big generous heart, caring enough to risk and work sensitively with boundaries.

[Former-Member]

Perhaps you're right @Zoe7 ... maybe things wont seem so dire after a decent sleep.  Unfortunately sleep will not be easy.  But I need to try. 

Thanks for your help tonight Zoe ... as always, its much appreciated.  And you too  @Faith-and-Hope @Sans911 @outlander @Appleblossom . 💕😴💤🌺

[Zoe7]

If you cannot sleep then jump back on and see if I am still up @Former-Member It is going to take me a while to wind down myself so will be around for a bit longer. I do hope you sleep a little ...at least rest as much as you can. Tomorrow is another day but one where we will be here for you no matter what the day brings. Hugs and hugs Hon