My Hospital Stay

[soul]

Is there some sort of consent that you have to give before these tests are done @utopia? I realise that they have a duty of care to make sure you're healthy but I agree that some observation before they go all in would be preferable. Maybe they are in cahoots with the service providers???

Next time, give them this look

[utopia]

@soul. Lol. I think that was my look last night.
Guess they've seen worse. Just told them I'm not paying it. That company can sort it out with WorkCover.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Lol ... great look @soul ..... ❣️

Hugs @utopia ..... 💜💕

[utopia]

Nurse says to me at 5.20pm. We'll take your obs soon. Lets just have a little chat first. Do you know how long you've been here? What day is it? Do you think of suicide? I answer honestly. Then they don't like the answers.
4 hours later and still no obs taken.
I've noticed that I don't react to anxiety the same way I used too.
I feel it in my chest. Often intense pain on my left chest. Sometimes below the breast. Sometimes above. And sometimes on the right hand side. Purely anxiety reaction.
Yet I no longer react with my mind when anxious. I wouldn't know I was anxious now, unless I feel chest pain. No fight or flight or freeze. No sweats. No change in breath. No thinking of dread. No awareness of being worried. Numb mind. But painful chest.
Anyone else get that? Anyone else only aware of 1 physical symptom of anxiety only?

[Faith-and-Hope]

I get those sort of chest pains @utopia ...... it's my cue to take a time out and reduce the stress load.

[utopia]

@Faith-and-Hope. Not sure what else I can do to destress. In hospital. Taking my meds. Attending groups. Doing what I'm told. Trying not to think too much about negative things.
Went ti an Anxiety group today. Was meant to offer solutions. Ended up being an open discussion. So no handout sheets to read through. No answers on how to reduce my chest pain. No answers on why my response to anxiety has changed.
Who knows. I may find the answer tomorrow.

[Faith-and-Hope]

I know you mentioned to the staff the other day that you get chest pains as a marker of anxiety ..... has that been r fostered in your notes now that the test results were all clear ?

[soul]

I have had those pains too @utopia@Faith-and-Hope. Panic attacks that can come out of nowhere sometimes. Haven't had them for a little while now thankfully.

I reckon your subconscious mind can bring them on at times. I have had them in the middle of the night waking up from a dream, during the day and once when I was out. That was scary. I felt so faint and had trouble breathing as well. The chest pain feels like a heart attack not that I have ever had one.

I find that concentrating on breathing and mindfully telling myself that this will pass helps. Focussing on something whether it be an object I can see or the sounds I hear or anything that will distract me is good too. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

@utopia ..... above ......

If it's registered, then you can let them know when you are feeling stressed, by that sensation coming on, and use that at leverage to be listened to ..... or to take a time out from what is pressuring you in the moment.

It's something they need to take seriously if it has now become a health marker for you.

Eg ..... "I'm sorry, I can't sleep in that bed .... the anxiety of feeling like I will fall out is triggering angina in me ....."

It's not ..... "I'm a fussy britches who is going to complain about everything you offer me" and the angina is the red flag for that.

[utopia]

@soul @Faith-and-Hope. The psychiatrist caught up with me and mum after lunch today. He said the ECG did show a problem. A slowing of the heart beat. He will look through all my test results to see if it may be causes by medication.
Then after mum left, I was escorted to see the gp who saw me on Monday. She said the ECG showed a slowing of the heart beat. She has ordered a copy of the previous results - so she can look through those as well. She will discuss this with my psychiatrist tomorrow and then sit down with me again.
She is already talking 'pacemaker'. Starting to increase worry.
My chest pain has been on and off all day. It's not a panic attack or an anxiety attack. I get no change in breath or sweating or anything.
But my chest pain at the moment is getting intense as I worry more. Although it started when I wasn't worried.
Think I'll go and get some meds from the nurses.