Taking the plunge

[CheerBear]

Morning @Maggie 🙂

I can't see the mug yet but I smiled at the thought 🙂

Thanks for sharing in my sparkles. It's so nice to have people who get what things like that mean. I looked for flowery boots but couldn't see any. I did find an incredibly cool shoe shop with some sandals like no sandals I've ever seen before. It made me think of you 🙂

The disrupted week was making it look like a no gig week this time, but I think I have untwisted enough to get along. I am not sure about gig today though because of my Little who wasn't looking so well when they went to bed. Fingers crossed they are ok.

How are you going this morning?

[Maggie]

@CheerBear  Sorry little ( might ) be unwell. Fingers crossed 🤞🤞🤞

Your boots put a smile on my face @CheerBear  and by the sound of the conversation last night, a few others also.

Tossing up in my head weather to withdraw my food money here again. It’s been an on going issue here. I don’t like confrontation, and keep say, I’ll be out of here soon. Unfortunately, soon isn’t happening, and paying for food the birds eat, which I can’t afford, isn’t right either. 🤔🤔

[CheerBear]

That's a yuck thing to be tossing up @Maggie 🙁 It feels so wrong to think of you in the situation you're in. I so wish soon was actually happening for you.

Do you talk about getting out with the others? Are there others there who want out too?

How was your yesterday?

All the questions sorry. No need to answer if you're not up to it.

[Maggie]

@CheerBear  Yes there are a few others who would like to escape with me. Unfortunately, easier said than done. When did changing an address become this difficult. 🤔🤔

Yesterday was ok thanks. Walked dogs with kind of friend, listened to her woes. She does have things to complain about though. She’s been a Carer for 25 years to someone, I consider, to be very difficult. Careers don’t get support, just worn out. That’s one of the big areas I really feel for her in. But in saying that, she’s difficult herself. Narcissistic personality plus. She’s learnt to survive as we all do, in our own way.

[CheerBear]

I'm sorry you're all in that place @Maggie, where you want to escape. Feeling and being stuck and wanting out of something you can't get out of is awful. Shaky housing makes everything hard 🙁

You're a great listener and your kind of friend is lucky to have you. Caring for someone who is difficult for that long would take a toll. Tricky to listen though when there are some things that make it difficult to be around her. I really like the way you said that at the end. Our means of survival deserves to be looked at that way I think, though its ok if it isn't ok for you to be around it (that makes so much more sense in my head!).

Would you stay in touch with kind of friend if/when you get out?

[CheerBear]

👋 and ❤ and 🤗 (grrr to the hug emoji looking so flipping happy - they need to make a less smiley hug one) @Faith-and-Hope, who I can see under that 👍. Catching bits of how it's going for you and feeling the feels about that with you.

[Maggie]

@CheerBear  Kind of friend isn’t going to let me get away. 😁😁😁 Everyone avoids her really. She’s loud, aggressive and we are so opposites. That can be funny in a not so funny way too though. Sometimes I don’t know who I feel for more, her, those she flattens  on her way, or me, trying to figure out what just happened. Hyper alert always, but I’m there anyway, why not make use of it, the hyper alert thing. But every now and then, I see a vulnerable tiny part of her. I feel for her mostly, but at times I want to walk as far away as I can and never look back. But like all of us, it’s not all of her. There more, just well hidden. We are complicated human beings.

Any news of little yet, and what today has ahead for you.?

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thanks @CheerBear  🙏  .... it’s been a surprisingly quiet turn of events.  Very different from what might have been a few years ago .... because he is letting me go .... and the kids are far more stable in their own minds, and spaces.  It still won’t be a walk in the park, but probably as okayish as it possibly could be.

I think this will increase everybody’s wellness .... or “wellness” as the ed still exists despite any changes in other dynamics.

👋💐💕 @Maggie  .... hearing along with you too.

And yeah, I have often reached for a frowny-hug emoji that is not there .....

[Faith-and-Hope]

And I looooove the sparkle-boots @CheerBear .....❣️

[Maggie]

@Faith-and-Hope  I’ve been typing your name in but not getting a tag, so I was pleased to see your response so I could tag you to let you know I’m hearing you also. Tough stuff, it seems what life is made of for many of us. Always remember, if you can, your value. 💕💕💕