not feeling good

[Zoe7]

Do what you need to do my beautiful friend @BlueBay 

Take care of yourself today.

Here for you when you need...

...still on your shoulder softly touching your cheek and sending you warm, soft rays of light...

All my love and many hugs

Zoe

[BlueBay]

Thank you @Former-Member.

I am stuck in a rut, my mind is racing with so many thoughts mainly negative.  Have a horrible headache still, pain down my neck and shoulders and back.  think i am coming down with something.

and now tomorrow instead of it being my day off work i have to go in.  it just sh**s me because i am so stupid and just can't say no.  But then there is no one else to cover the shift.  

Anyway, stuck in my negative horrible thoughts right now.  Don't even know who is around.

i just so angry. i am sorry i don't mean to keep going on with my crap.

i am sure everyone is sick of reading my sh**t.

[Shaz51]

I am here @BlueBay xx

sending you hugs my friend

[BlueBay]

Thanks @Shaz51

I don't know how I actuyally feel - angry, sad, depressed, emotional, frustrated.

Maybe all those feelings.  But I really can't pinpoint a specific reason.  

I wish I was much better in coping with stuff but i am not. that's life so i guess i have to put up with my crap thinking and behaving.  each time i try to change something else pops up to hurt me or challenge me.

i don't think i am ready for any more challenges.

[Former-Member]

Hi @BlueBay

It's rough being called into work on your day off when you aren't feeling well. That would stress me out too. Hope it's not too long a shift. Also hope you can get into see a GP soon as your symptoms sound nasty. You seem to get a lot of headaches - they can make life miserable if continuous. I feel for you.

Never be sorry - we are here to support you. I just wish I could take your pain away and make everything alright for you. You have some major life changes coming up - and although really exciting and may make all the difference to your happiness, it can also be stressful in the process.

Don't overdo it my friend - when you do have some time off allow yourself to do those activities that relax you. I have noticed in the past that helps you to feel better. Be kind to you in the meantime and get well soon. Lots of love 💕

[Zoe7]

Thinking of you @BlueBay

[BlueBay]

Another challenge for the day - daughter's partner has moved in today.  They are trying to save money to buy a house.  But we have our house on the market!!  So if we move (if we sell) we will buy a house that suits us not everyone else.

I am just stressing.  My son should hear soon from the police to see when he goes to the Academy and start his career as a police officer.  That's another change as he will live at the Academy.

Do you know @Former-Member @Shaz51 I feel like crying right now but can't because everyone is home.

I think tonight i will have a bath with epsom salts to help with my pains.  Actually just noticed i am sore under my throat as well.  i hope i am not getting the flu; one of my friends has just got over it and she was sick for more than a week.

i wish you all the best too @Former-Member with your selling of the house as well. it will be nice to start afresh.

wish these pains would go away.

[Shaz51]

I think tonight i will have a bath with epsom salts to help with my pains. -- that sounds like a good plan @BlueBay xx

I think I will join you my friend , to relax my muscles too

One day at a time @BlueBay, we are here for you

[BlueBay]

thank you my dear butterfly @Zoe7

how are you? i read somewhere you weren't too good today.  thinking of you 

take care xxoo

[Zoe7]

@BlueBay crashed heavily this afternoon - still feeling really sick and anxiety is high. Trying really hard to pick myself up for tonight - don't know if I can but I want to. 

Keep putting one foot in front of the other my friend - we'll make it!!!!

love and hugs

Zoe