not feeling good

[Faith-and-Hope]

Lol @Former-Member ..... 😊

You will find me on Zoe7's Through One's Eyes art thread, and if you're up for a marathon read, I have a travel thread going calked Far and Away  .... I will tag you from both ....

🌷

[BlueBay]

Hi @Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Zoe7@Appleblossom@Shaz51

@Former-Memberand anyone else i have forgotten 🙂

Thank you everyone for your support, care, love and just being there for me last night.

I know i struggle so much with my thinking and behaviour.  i don't believe myself that i can get better; i believe that i will always struggle.

work was okay today, yes i was distracted and kept busy.  i had a headache all day. but now i am watching tv and think i will try to have an early night.

i just wanted to say thank you to everyone.  I really hope i haven't forgetten anyone, if i have apologies i dont mean to; my memory isn't that good.

Love BB

[Appleblossom]

Dear @BlueBay

Glad to hear from you.  join the club .. on the struggling ...

In the old days they called us Aussie Battlers ..

in the UK they apparently have JAMS ... Just About Managing .. lol

[Former-Member]

Hi @BlueBay

Glad work was okay for you today and that you are relaxing now in front of the television. I hope tomorrow is even better for you. Sweet dreams my friend 🙂 

[BlueBay]

Hi everyone
Horrible night and another horrible dream.
Dreamt I was in psych hospital and guy came in shot this person next to me and he landed on me. I felt the body slump on me. Then I was walking down street and followed by guys in car. I ran and hid from them but they found me. It was horrible. Awake at 2am thinking of so much stuff from house to finances to work to new shop to kids. It was everywhere.
Awake now with another headache have to get ready for work.

[BlueBay]

Hi @Former-Member
It wasn't sweet dreams at all. I'm feeling exhausted and scared. These dreams really stirred things.

[BlueBay]

Just realised today is a shit day. A family friend lost her partner of 20 yrs to a horrible event. He was her soul mate. It's one yr today he was found shot.
Tomo is my nieces birthday she would have been 27 but she suicided 4 yrs ago. I miss her and loved her.

On a happier note it's my sons birthday on Friday st Patrick's day. He'll be 24.

What a week.

[Former-Member]

Ahhh @BlueBay - so sorry to read of your niece and friends partner. This was nearly a reality for myself last year so I sincerely empathise. I am not surprised your dreams were not good and yes, they can really cause anxiety. It can take me awhile to shake them off in the morning and I find keeping busy and distractions helps do this, but it's not a good start to the day for sure. I hope the day improves for you a bit.

Friday will be a good day of celebration for the family to look forward to. Happy birthday to @BlueBay's son 🎉🍾 Good ole St Pat - the luck of the Irish 🍀 Wish I had some lol. I was born on the 19th - St Joseph's day! 😀

[utopia]

@BlueBay. No wonder your dreams were terrifying. With your friends partners shooting only a year ago & your nieces suicide 4 years earlier. Sometimes our subconscious mind doesn't let us forget. And that comes out in dreams.
Do what you can today at work. Hopefully being busy will let you focus on other things.
So your little boy will be 24 soon. Wow! Time flies so fast when we have children. Is he the one joining the police force?

[BlueBay]

Thanks @Former-Member and @utopia
At lunch break. Work is quiet. Damn. Headache not going away.
Yeah this is the son going into police force. My youngest child turns 21 in June. He is still deciding on party.
I really wish I was home. But can't and I finish at 6pm tonight. Damn.