rough time

[Snowie]

@outlanderdoes sound like a difficult place to be in hun. Sometimes we know something is wrong, we just can't pin point exactly what is wrong. And that's ok, we all have those times. Remember it is ok not to be ok all the time. 

Those thoughts of not wanting to be here anymore and super hard to sit with hun. Remember they are only thoughts and even though they are difficult to sit with, they are just thoughts. 

[outlander]

its a crap place to be in 😞 @Snowie yes just thoughts....

maybe sitting is better, i know you say its not burdening you but thats whats screaming at me in my mind atm. it isnt you, it is me. im sorry

[Appleblossom]

hey @outlander @Snowie @Former-Member

Group Hug.

Working with screaming thoughts is hard work.

[Snowie]

No need to apologise @outlander. I know sometimes words are hard sweetie 

[outlander]

thank you @Former-Member @Snowie @Appleblossom for just being here

[Appleblossom]

@outlander All humans have needs and that is fair and fine. To admit that is important.  I hate to admit that I have needs, and you have been there for me.

You are helpful and considerate and far from being a burden.

[outlander]

thanks @Appleblossom i cant see any of the pictures posted yet...
i know we all have needs and its ok to have them but its so hard to ask for help. i would rather help and be there for others then to be helped myself. get really upset with myself when things arent going well for me but its the same things, its things i should be able to manage myself or things that sounds really stupid

edit: sorry Apple, 

i always worry that when im upset or like i am at the moment my posts come across all wrong and pushes everyone away even without meaning too, and stops others from asking for help for themsleves and i stress that if someone meantions something helpful but it isnt for me or ive tried it but hasnt helped tonight/day itll upset others and i know that might not always be the case but its something constantly on my mind. 

[outlander]

love the pictures and Gifs @Appleblossom @Former-Member @Snowie i can see them now

[Appleblossom]

Often the patterns we struggle with are fairly stable.

 @outlander

[Appleblossom]

We cant know how people at home are feeling beyond what they communicate.  You cannot take responsibility for all, though being a sensitive oldest girl you may feel that way.

So glad you are still here on the forum.  Though not that it means you are struggling.  At one stage I felt I should tag conditions on everything I thought or write, and my posts would read like a legal document ... not very warm or supportive lol ... we just ... have a go.

 @outlander