Coming to terms with reality

[Appleblossom]

@eudemonism DOnt take stuff I say personally, just use anything that is useful to you.  To feel normal or whatever. I think you are making progress in lots of ways.  Dealing with shame is huge. I found it so hard to give up cigs it took about 20 times, but i did it and its worth it.  You can too.

I hope I have not put my foot in it generally @Former-Member @Adek

I have a lot on at the moment.  Christian compassion can really help, but I am also over my head in some negative sides of church so need to pass on that for a while.

We are all beautiful souls, even with our dark sides.  I have been thinking of Jung and embracing our shadow side.  I often feel angry, my GP said it is repressed, whatever is the right thing to do about it all,,, I try every day to follow the best path I can.  All works in progress.

[Former-Member]

@eudemonism @Adek @Appleblossom

I am very tired....very drained...I will write another day

please all take care of yourselves...you have all come to mean something to me...I value your presence..I don't know how else to put it

I do not feel that I am better than any of you....I just express myself in my own way

goodnight

[eudemonism]

@Former-Member thanks for showing yourself and mentioning that to me. It's appreciated. <br><br>@Appleblossom i hear you when you talk dark sides and about christianity getting deep. <br><br>@mohill i hope you have a few good days coming your way and things sort themselves out for you. <br><br>@Vanessa5 im contemplating getting myself a nice journal book or two. <br><br>@Adek i am thinking about you over there in another country and wish you all the best. <br><br>I woke up today at about 4am and had coffee, cigarettes and some food and also did a phone call with a friend, watched tv, checked fb and then went back to bed for an hour or two. Until 8am.<br>Feeling better because of the temperature rising and perhaps medication is in full swing. I had shower. And drove to a spot and took dog for walk. Was really good. Weather was great. (Bit concerned about dogs behaviour around other dogs and animals and people )<br>Came home at 11am had an early lunch and then lied down. Called support worker earlier and he called back as i was on my walk. And said he could catch up at 11am but i didnt know I'd get home in time. So made appointment for 3.30pm<br><br>Really don't have any viable options for activities to do. Not really wanting to engage with anybody. Because of the time, effort and resources it will drain from me. And then risking having a drink, using and resenting the psychological and social scenario that unfolds. So better to do nothing. <br><br>Will be focusing on peace of mind. Eliminating social anxiety. And planning my next move carefully. Maybe another walk. Or just hang on until support worker comes around. <br><br>Have mental illness group to attend but when i consider time, effort and resources to attend vs benefits. I don't think it's worth it. <br><br>Pay day tomorrow. So. Food. Fuel. Smokes. Bills. Essentials and all money be gone.

[Adek]

Hi @eudemonism good to read your encounters today. Some giving, taking and me-time going on there. Surprisingly we started the day almost the same. Woke up 3am..did an hour night prayer...sleep again. Woke up 6am, another hour of dawn prayer. Made corn fritters with chive dipping for breakfast..then crawled into the lower cabinet, unscrewed the kitchen tap, into bedroom unscrewed the bathroom tap, switched the screw from bedroom to replace the broken screw in kitchen. Done. Yet to check on the bath tap whether need to replace only the washer and screw..or just get one set new. So i saved some cash insted of having to replace 2 broken taps.

Had an hour brunch with ex at the hospital..went through his proposal report for construction, seen therapist for an hour session. Done groceries and dropped by the hardware store bought new tap, home..taps installed.

Done giving and taking and now me-time making steak for dinner with daughter who turned up to give me a hand fixing the taps. Thank God for the productive day.

There is beauty... in every day.

[eudemonism]

@Appleblossom @Former-Member @Vanessa5

[eudemonism]

If its not go go go. Its stop stop stop.

[Former-Member]

laugh

eveyone has been busy today except me by the sounds of it

did some dreaded food shopping

started sorting clothes for op shop

had a look after me day

still no walk

need some help to get me out folks

night night

[Adek]

Can someone help describe what does
'...Coming to terms with reality...' actually means?🤔

Thanks in advance..,,💐🌷

[eudemonism]

Um @Former-Member one thing I've found that helps with walking is. If you have that urge to go for a walk you just go. And dont bargain with yourself. Of course you're in control. You do things in your own time. (I got told to never give anyone advice long ago ) and i know if i do something someone suggests or advises me too and it works out bad i get grumpy )

@Adeki think coming to terms with reality means. A level of acceptance. A level of understanding that something needs to be done. A level of acknowledging that the suffering is real.

I would be working if i could be. I would be medication free if i could be. I would hold down a relationship if i could. I would change alot of things if i had the choice to do so. Times are changing! Life and reality is becoming really difficult... basically, if you're not born into money or you don't havea good job. Are elite. Or well off. Fortunate. You're working a minimum wage. You're only just scraping bye each week or fortnight. And if you got problems. You're on social welfare and if the world can. It will screw you over time and time again.

Talking about choices! So many choices are out of my hands.

[Former-Member]

thanks @eudemonism

I will try to put the walking idea into practice.

I dont like to think that I am giving people advice as I am not an expert at anything

I do have lived experience....as the title of the forum suggests

I want to share some of the things that I have tried over the years.....some have not worked for me...might work for others....some have helped me look at my life differently...there is still so much for me to learn

I know how much pain that I have felt....no comparing with others...

I only suggest....try to encourage.....

I try very hard working on my programmed thinking these days

I try very hard to live in the now

responding to people with whom I can relate even if the feeling is minute helps me and I hope that sometimes it can help others

I too have many days where I hurt so much....I hide inside my home.... I isolate myself

This I am also working hard at

I dont blame others when I dont do what I want to though......I used to always blame myself....I am working hard at not doing this also

yes.....working hard....feeling like getting nowhere ...sometimes....not all of the time

no advice given here