Coming to terms with reality

[eudemonism]

I think its time i give up cigarettes

[Vanessa5]

Hi @eudemonism,

I think that's a good idea. I gave up cigarettes about 4 months ago after smoking for nearly 18 years. One of the voices i hear nagged me until i couldn't take it anymore and gave up. So i guess not all voices are a bad thing then hey? I am now working on my diet re: return of the blasted taste buds. This means i need to cut down on the carbohydrates a bit. Even though i am exercising everyday I am not burning enough off. It will taper out with hard work and will power though.

Giving up smoking is one of the best things you can do for your long term health. I hear a voice that attacks me if i even THINK about buying a pouch of tobacco so i don't think i'll be starting up again anytime soon. 

I wish you all the best in kicking your nicotine habit @eudemonism. It certainly would not only be a huge achievement health wise but probably would be of financial benefit also. They're just too expensive now and I hate wasting money!

@Vanessa5

[Adek]

The racing thoughts normally takes few days up to a week @Former-Member... depending on mense cycle...and it exhausts me, often makes it hard to sleep. Planning a morning walk by the lake with my ex tomorrow morning..and looking forward to sum up the eventful month with my psychotherapist the day after.

Yes...when 'able'. When not...i was told to say "No".. raise up my hands and halt !...its 'me-time' ...

[Appleblossom]

It was terrible to read about the Myanmar massacre. @Adek I had not read about it til you posted, so Thank you. There is a lot of concern re North Korea too.

I dont know that it is helpful to compare the issues on this forum with an event like that.  It does not help people express or solve thier situations.  It muzzles them and therefore can be dangerous and a kind of guilt trip.  It takes a level of COURAGE to admit one's fear and vulnerability.  Whenever I travelled in SEAsia I was kind and did not judge people, but often it is hard to get understanding in the other direction for the west.  I had too much WWII thrust upon me and my son had too many suicides at him. 

@AdekYou are very lucky that you are were encouraged to say "no" and that people respected your limits. You are lucky your parents are alive, but that does not always happen for everybody. The are real and genuine issues suffered in Australia.

Giving up cigarettes is a great idea. @eudemonism

[eudemonism]

Thanks for the advice and support @Vanessa5 am hearing you loud and clear. I know i can give them up and i will be successful. How did you give up?

Im noticing that im constantly craving something. And my mind is coming up with ideas to solve this craving sensation. Buy its not real practical or helpful. So now that ive noticed it. Im hoping i can find a way to deal with the feeling. Because its apart of what makes me pick up the cigarette everytime. Im thinking its possibly just. Having to snap out of my frame of mind. And go peaceful mind mode. Or there is possibly a combination of things causing this craving sensation. What do you think?

Im thinking that a big part of it is. Following through with the normal stuff. And taking step bye step toward the next achievement. Ie. Shower. Washing. Food. Cup of tea. Plan for tomorrow. And then the mental side of things. Visioning. Meditating. Etc. Plus I am hooked into stuff happening on my phone.

Anyone else have any ideas what it could be? And what would help?

[Adek]

No @Appleblossom. My dad passed away at 37yrs old. I was 12 y/o then...2nd among 8 siblings and my youngest sister was just 3 mths old. Mom was admitted for 6 mths a year later. And many many times after...leaving me to look after my baby siblings and dropping out of school at times. Mom was diagnosed with manic depressive psychosis...we call it bipolar disorder type 1 nowadays. Still taking her jabs after 35 yrs...still did not remarry since dad passed...and raised us up all 8 with her own hands...alone...and jobless due to sickness. My son is also bipolar...youngest daughter ADHD...and i am a single mom to 3...also bipolar..and jobless.

Life..is what colours we choose to paint @Appleblossom. I could easily turn out like the story i shared..with dad died at almost same age as my friend, mom hospitalised most of times...and i was just 12 yrs old with 6 younger siblings. Elder was 15 y/o. Yes...i was lucky. I was lucky cuz i stick to my faith and what the religion taught me. Thats the truest blessing i have in life...xoxo.

[eudemonism]

Feeling messed up and jumbled. Need to take a break and relax. Good night all.

[Former-Member]

yes @eudemonism

there have been some very heavy subjects today

rest up .....be kind to yourself

speak again

[Former-Member]

@eudemonism

perhaps some anxiety of what is happening next

nervous energy wanting to do more ...not sure what to do first?

could be positive energy

phones ...computers can be addictive

better to listen to some good music

goodnight

[Adek]

Sorry all. No worries..i will keep the abusive and darker phases to myself to avoid more distraught. Had to share the reality of my life since my parents had been brought up and misjudged. Wished theres a way to switch my profile off too. Sigh...its broad daylight here so i wish u all a good rest.