Coming to terms with reality

[Former-Member]

hey @Adek not aimed at you

a very sensitive subject for you to raise

just trying to lighten the load

[Former-Member]

@Adek I should have phrased it differently

I am not travelling too well myself

that blasted wind gets inside of me and I do not like it

take care

[Adek]

Hehe..sorry for that wind @Former-Member 😋 Its just me and my racing head thats using me up..no worries. Sensed it already when i said i wanna be a silent reader for awhile but then u see...i failed and rattled on.
Hush now🙊🙊🙊

[Former-Member]

no need for hush @Adek - you are real and everyone here has hurts and pains that deserve to be heard. Its also great that we're getting to know each other on such a deeper level. We all come from things with different perspectives and our own lenses of experience. i have learnt so much from others here, because of what they've been through. Thank you for sharing and I hope you do continue to share on the forums...
At times we all have some differences of opinions, its a struggle with written language at times! Mostly i try to trust that we're all coming from an honest and whole hearted place, even when things get tricky!
Enjoying reading this thread!

[Former-Member]

good morning @eudemonism @Adek @Appleblossom @Vanessa5 @Former-Member

blue sky here today...some clouds....blasted wind is still hanging around

that wind really got under my skin yesterday

I wonder if it is nature taunting?

well hope you are all doing something that you want to today

for me another mighty effort to get out for a walk......that wind though!!

[Appleblossom]

I did not judge your parents @Adek SO sorry you thought that.  Your mother sounds amazing in her own way and you too.  We have a lot in common.  I am going to withdraw from the thread as I am in crises. 

please all have a good week.

[eudemonism]

I'd like to think a drug and alcohol free life is possible. But apart of me just thinks it cannot be true. Because there is nothing else out there.

[Former-Member]

oh @Appleblossom

not you too

I am at my wit's end...

I am irritable ...not at all myself....I am so teary yesterday and again today

I try so hard on this site to reach out and let others know how important they are.....that they are worthy ...deserve to be heard and listened to..try to take into account the feelings of others

I am still here...yes I am hurting myself re my own stuff....

we all have our own issues.....days that are worse than others

if anyone needs time away or are feeling extra fragile please try and let the others know...take time out...I will try to do this myself

we dont need to feel guilty on top of all of our other issues

it is so much easier to throw our hands up in the air in despair than it is to write about how we feel and let others know that we will be back

@Adek @Appleblossom @moderator today

[Former-Member]

hello @eudemonism

are you having a bad day today too? 

if you have turned to drugs and alcohol in the past when you are feeling helpless...then your programmed thinking will take you back to the same thoughts.

that is not a good place to go back to.....you know that after the episode you wished that you hadn't resorted to using that method.

when feeling low it can be very difficult to think what else to do.

I am actually very upset myself at the moment. I want so very much for all of us on this thread to find some relief in the responses...some ideas...some hope..

I am a realistic person and know that there is no magic wand to wave....there is hard work ahead...the moments of sheer joy about the simplest things in life are worth all of that hard effort...

remember the walking that you have been doing.....time spent with your dog....

you achieved a huge task on your list....you rearranged your living room and loved the feel of it...

you have come so far since I first read your thread....

move away from where you are standing.....get some fresh air....

yes walk.....smile at what pleases you ....seratonin.....walking...exercise...good energy vibes...respecting your physical side....your mental side is rewarded

what do you think?

[eudemonism]

Hi @Former-Member unsure of what too say too you. Because im thinking some of your writings maybe directed at me. But yeah, thanks for all the acceptance, support, understanding and kind words. I've put some thought into some things you've written. And, it's very useful and helpful stuff. And some of the other stuff has made me reflect (show compassion ) for what you're dealing with, going through and feeling. And that's all i feel capable of doing...