The Weekly Friday Feast

[Shimmer]

Hamburgers out with your husband sounds lovely @BlueBay! Glad you enjoyed 

Fair enough that you are feeling drained and sleepy, good that you're back in hospital ready to settle in for the night.

[Former-Member]

Hi @Shaz51 and everyone.
Thanks for the hugs. Feeling a bit lonely and sorry for myself atm. Hospital is okay, can't bring myself to talk to anyone.... or make eye contact. Just feeling a bit crappy about myself. Dinner was nice though- vegetarian layered pasta- can't spell the 'l' word! 😖

[Shaz51]

Hi @Former-Member

been thinking of you today

we ar here for you my friend xx

[Shimmer]

Hi @Former-Member,

Lovely to cross paths with you 

Sorry to hear that you are feeling lonely and down about yourself right now. That's good that hospital is going okay, and understandable that you are having trouble talking to others. I'm glad you joined us for a chat tonight 

Do you mean lasagna? That is one of my favourites!

[Former-Member]

Thank you. I feel like such a failure of a person. And these doctors must think I'm such a useless pile of crap. What is wrong with me? Why does this happen to me? I'm so scared.

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Shimmer......

I feel like I have to justify myself to the world - I feel like other people don't believe the mental illnesses I have - current diagnoses - schizophrenia, major depression, generalised anxiety, PTSD or slight variations on those or the ones I have had EDONS & panic disorder with agoraphobia - I hate labels, but they are needed to receive DSP & to research treatments - I wouldn't be on DSP if I was "just attention seeking" anyhow, the attention you get for schizophrenia is negative - a lot of people think you are violent - I don't understand why someone would think you would pretend to have schizophrenia - she has told me she has bulimia & OCD which I have never SEEN her symptoms of, but never questioned her or told her she was attention seeking.... why are people like this to ME? I feel like there is something INHERENTLY wrong with ME...

Yes, I have 3 burmese cats - Katniss & Primrose have 2 week year old kittens - People judge you for cat breeding too - people judge you for everything - can't be yourself anywhere except anonymous forums or you will get torn to threads - at least you do if you are me - because it keeps happening over & over...

Sorry...

[Shaz51]

Hello @Former-Member xx

the kittens are already 2 weeks old , wow

I love your cats Katniss & Primrose , they are sooo loving

[Shimmer]

You're not alone in feeling like a failure sometimes @Former-Member. Having that thought doesn't mean that it is true.

The doctors are there to help you, not judge you. I hope some are conveying a reassuring sense of compassion.

I'm curious about those thoughts "what is wrong with me?" and "why does this happen to me?" - do you find yourself dwelling on these thoughts often? How do you feel when you spend time trying to figure out the answers?

[Former-Member]

Hugs @Former-Member that's Just awful... She has no clue... Hugs xx
Hi everyone
I have no energy at all left tonight. I can't think. I did the end of term social thing to say goodbye to people and now ready to curl up away somewhere!
Lj

[Former-Member]

Thank you @Shaz51....

They are all beautiful cats with interesting, unique, wonderful personalities...

We are still supplement feeding one kitten who is less than half the weight of the others - it is a fighter though - it wants to live.... 

How are you & your hubby?

There has been some media coverage about some comments bishop & abbott made about people with mental illness rorting dsp/welfare - I don't know how out of context the media took them, but bad time for people to tell me I'm just attention seeking - although it is always a bad time....

I don't know what wwe are having for dinner - I am hungry, but don't feel like eating... last night we had dinner at 10pm... I was going to go to a special "christmas gratitude hatha yoga" class today, but couldn't make myself go after this "friend" (ex friend) said such horrible things... 

Sigh, 

Anna