APPROACHING SURE?

[Shaz51]

sending you lots of hugs @Appleblossom 

[Appleblossom]

Sorry you are moving on @Tawney, but that might be a good thing and that your life will open up in a good way.

Cheers

[Appleblossom]

I am settling. @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Kurra @Shaz51

During the day I went to emergency I had been on the phone to RC and referred to a solicitor to speak about my Christmas Eve "flare up".He was good and thorough and reconnected when we were cut off. He gave me some clarity and thought legally I would not get much satisfaction from going to the police as it would stir me up.  In a way he was more right than he realised as that was part of why I was so raw and flipped out.

The really good thing was that I was assisted to make an informed decision.  I dont want to put energy inot going to police for nothing and more hurt for myself.  He gave me pointers on managing it as an internal dispute and choosing desired outcomes. Said I should definitely call back for personal injury .. later when things settled

THIS choir director is making a solid stand for ME, and so are a few members. So it will be ok and I dont feel invisible or that I have to be perfect to belong.  It feels very strange and comforting to be supported when I am not going well. I really appreciate it. I respect these people, so it must be where I am meant to be.

Tawney will miss you

[Kurra]

That's really encouraging advice @Appleblossom. The support within the choir is absolutely brilliant. I'm so pleased for you. Hugzzz 💕 💜 💕 🎶 🎶

[Former-Member]

Hi @Appleblossom

Well done for seeking the information and right people to help you come to a decision. As you say, its something you can revisit later, but for now it seems as though you have good support, i'm so happy to hear that.

Are yu ok tonight though (even though you're settling)?

[Appleblossom]

@Former-Member I was good last night. I became inspired and did a picture and photo shuffle on my walls. Its a big job.

It was really good for me. I put most of the personal photos in my room and together and arranged a shrine as a lot of the people have passed.  I am working on my right to have a calming good space in my bedroom.  I have plenty of stuff .. its just getting the balances right.  I put my Lady of Lake pic above my bed as I find it most healing and all the deeply loved photos close by me .. for positive vibes through the night.

In my piano studio I decluttered and put my greenie & social justice pics around with the arty ones.  To give a better sense of who I am.

Before there were too many ghosts in the studio.  I will always love my ghosts and they have a place but asking them to recede a little and let me live my life. Also highlighting my world view and my photos rather than paying too much homage to my family's points of view.

Going to orchestral rehearsal today.

Hope you and kids are well lj

[Former-Member]

That sounds beautiful @Appleblossom for so many reasons. I'm glad you're turning your spaces into a reflection of the amazing person that you are. And staying true to the enterety of yourself. While you are showing your difference to family values/points of view you are embracing all the love and memories of the people who have passed. Sounds like a perfect balance. I hope that you slept peacefully last night, watched over by you Lady of Lake picture.
lots of hugs and enjoy your rehearsal!
lj

[Faith-and-Hope]

Sounds like some beautiful adjustments @Appleblossom .....

🌷🌸💕

[Shaz51]

that sounds Beautiful @Appleblossom 

 You have inspired me to do some here , this house was my childhood home which I left and then inherited when my dad passed away -- I need to something that says this is now my house

lots of hugs and enjoy your rehearsal! xx

[Appleblossom]

Thank you all 

@Shaz51 That will be a great project and Mr Shaz may even be able to help, but ruminate and chew the cud on it a little bit so you know it reflects things you value.

I started in the garden and worked my way from outside to inside.  Part of it is making little positive life affirming choices which accumulate and all the pieces are falling into place now.  My ducks flying in formation kind of thing.

You can decide if it is a theme, colour, texture.

I often clammed up if I had to make a non essential choice and then justified it as being non essential ... it was a big step to make pro life choices as my SI was so rampant there did not seem to be reason but over time ... it has helped