I can’t cope

[Captain24]

It’s taken over me. I have no control. I have no power 

[tyme]

Let them be @Captain24 . It's true, you can't change them.

How does it feel?

Where is it in your body?

Please don't feel I am trivialising things or invalidating. It's just so important that you can stand back to be an observer as opposed to being caught up in the thick of it.

Hugs. Where do you feel the hug? What does it feel like?

[Captain24]

I’m done with everything 

[rav3n]

hey @Captain24 sorry to hear you're feeling this way, do you want to talk about it?
sending you healing energy 💙

[Captain24]

You probably won’t get this @rav3n.

I went to bed. 

Today I feel the same but on top of it, I’m really useless as well. I’ve had enough. 

[Captain24]

Why? Why am I here? Better people than me should still be here. People who had others care for them, were nice people. Then I’m still here. I’m not nice, I’m not a good person, not many people care about me, I’m just using space that others deserve. I don’t deserve to be here. I’m worthless. I have nothing to offer. I am nothing. Why should I bother. I want to give up. Everyone would be better off. 

[simplesymbol]

Hi @Captain24,

I've emailed you to seek assurance of your safety and hope that you cope during this difficult emotional and mental experience.

Warmly,

simplesymbol

[rav3n]

hey @Captain24 i'm really sorry that you feel this way. i remember you mentioning a while back to me that you find it hard to believe the good parts and you find it hard to be kinder to yourself when you're feeling really low - perhaps this is that low, and these are those intrusive thoughts and feelings - they're not a reflection of your worth. 

from what i know of you, you are a very nice person & even then, you don't need to be this perfect image of a 'good person' to be worthy of support and be worthy of being here. good people have their ups and downs too. we're all flawed, we all mess up and we all still deserve to be here and deserve kindness. you are here and you matter. 

please do reach out to Lifeline crisis supporter (24 Hrs) 13 11 14 or SCBS (24 Hrs) 1300 659 467, give your dogs a cuddle and remember that we're sitting with you. one of our mods has sent you a check-in email so let us know your safety, here for you 💜

[Captain24]

Thanks @rav3n 

That was really supportive. 

I’m not ok. 

I want to be done. 

[ArraDreaming]

@Captain24 we are on the live chat, it would be good to see you if you feel like coming along