Locked inside

[Loz_3647]

I'm locked inside of my mind. I'm worn out mentally. My grip is slipping. My heart feels crushed. My scream is silent. 

"And I ask myself out loud
Have I been lost all along
Was there something I could say or something I should not have done"

The end is near.

[Loz_3647]

Can't deal with these thoughts anymore....I'm done with this

[Eve7]

Hey @Loz_3647 

Take care. Sane is not a crisis service and you sound quite desperate.

Do you have a safety plan?

I suggest you call either Lifeline 131114

or 000

[Loz_3647]

That's basically the 'safety plan' but won't be contacting any of those

[Eve7]

Please be kind to yourself. You are precious @Loz_3647 

[wellwellwellnez]

From what I can see looking at how you've been lately, the question isn't whether you need a safety plan @Loz_3647 

The question is, what else do you need, in order to be in a place where you don't need a safety plan?

Clearly that thing you need is either very hard or very frightening. Probably both. That's why we're here.

[creative_writer]

@Loz_3647 I'm not sure if this resonates with you. Do you find it frustrating when people jump into "problem-solving mode" before they hear you out? I feel like we don't always get our needs met during a helpline phone call. It can be dependent on the helpline like I have more luck with the SANE counselling service than with other helplines. I've had hit and misses with helplines, mental health triage and even therapists, we all naturally connect to different people

[Loz_3647]

Safety plans are bs...it's all bs tbh....as if someone who is suicidal or whatever is going to speak to someone

[tonys]

@Loz_3647   Simple fella giving you a big big hug,   pour it all out on a page one day so we know what to do,             

toys  mb 1

[Appleblossom]

@Loz_3647 

Just resonating with your post and Munch's Scream.

Munch - The Scream

I like that it is wordless.

 

Its really hard.

There is a limit to what people on the forum can do.

In some ways that can be a good in that we cannot jump to interfere and call in the coppers for a welfare check or something like that.  Not sure exactly what Sane protocols are behind the scenes.  Sometimes it is good to be able to vent without fear of escalation in services.

That Sane is not a crisis service means the help we can give is limited, but it can also be worthwhile, if you can see as a bunch of people struggling just like you rather, people with ALL the answers and responsibility.  That gives you some options to engage in ways that matter to you.  Start new threads, join in on old ones.  Say a lot.  Say a bit.

Do what you have to do to get yourself in a better place.  I have had Suicidal thoughts rattling around in my head for nearly 40 years ... I get very tired of it ... weary sigh ...