Not Coping

[tyme]

Nutrition Science is sooo awesome! I've done bits of it as electives, but not the degree itself @Birdofparadise8 . I'm looking into more social work and health.

Don't know though. I'm looking to see what comes my way. I'm not going to go out there and just pick one. I'm a believer that it must come pass me because it's a national priority that aligns with my interests...

Most of my degrees have come about that way.

[Birdofparadise8]

Sounds interesting good luck. 

You doing much at the moment. I’m home alone so having so much fun. @tyme 

[tyme]

I enjoy being alone @Birdofparadise8  - I need it after a while. People all day is too much for my brain lol. 

So I've just been tidying things today.

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah ok well luck you then. @tyme 

I just don’t think I’m in the mental state where I like being alone it makes me feel worse I feel more lonely I guess. 

[tyme]

I guess I'm with people all day long so when I come home, I'm soooooo happy to be alone. @Birdofparadise8 .

I live alone, but I neve feel lonely. I keep myself busy.

Hence, I'm one of those people who don't reply to people on the phone too quickly, and sometimes I just forget....

Even when I get home, I have so many calls from people that I end up not getting to bed until late.... it just keeps going.

[Birdofparadise8]

That’s fair enough then @tyme.

I don’t get out much with having uni online and not many friends so then when I’m home through the day it just seem so make me more sad. 

[tyme]

Do you think it is a phase @Birdofparadise8 ? Perhaps after uni, when you 'get out in the real world', things change? I don't know.

But then again, I've never been a real people person. However, I seem to attract people so I'm constantly around them.

[Birdofparadise8]

Not sure I think it might be my depression talking because I still feel very alone in a room full of people as well. So who knows but yes hopefully after uni and I get to work more things might be better and I might enjoy being alone. @tyme 

[tyme]

I've been that way before @Birdofparadise8 . A room full of people and feeling alone... and yes, that was because of my depression. 

It was as though I wanted to be around people, yet I had built such strong walls that no one could get in! 

But yes, over time, things did shift.

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah that’s exactly how I feel it sucks. Hopefully things will improve. I’m also moving for uni next year so I may meet more people then as well and hopefully feel a little bit less alone. @tyme