Riding a wave

[Former-Member]

*slips in to collect empty plates, leaves some toast spread with homemade passionfruit butter for the little turtle*

Be well, little turtle. 

[Phoenix_Rising]

Hi @Former-Member,

I super love how you sneak out onto the ocean with food for this little wonky turtle. 

I'm still feeling very very wonky, but happily I'm SO traumatized by this latest development of being banned from calling the HC, that my brain has completely broken and I can't feel anything. Yay for clever brains that shut down to protect themselves. 

I have actually managed to finish off the DBT post - mostly because I didn't need to do any more writing, I just needed to make cool pictures. I will read over the written bit that I did ages ago and then post it either later today or tomorrow. 

I feel so sad and muddled by the fact that I'm too wonky for the guys at the HC to talk to me. This article came up on my FB feed today: https://www.verywell.com/top-terrific-traits-of-autistic-people-260321 It reminded me that it is ok to be a little wonky turtle. I'm different - not less. I just wish people could still like me and want to be around me after they spend time with me in the real world. 

Hi @SleepyPanda. 

[SleepyPanda]

Hi @Phoenix_Rising

Love the article, very positive way of looking at people.

Keep Trying!

SP

[Former-Member]

So pleased you appreciate the sneaking @Phoenix_Rising. Sometimes we just need someone to be there in some way without having to be poked and prodded to make sure we know they are there. 

That tumultous happening that happened to you is hard to comprehend. 

It seems to me that those in those positions are perhaps not recieving the most effective training and education and supervision and all those things, to look after themselves effectively, thus they withdraw themselves as their coping mechanism. 

Brains are clever, indeed they are. I thought the waves out on the ocean don't seem quite so humungous just now. 

Very interesting article - fell down that rabbit hole - thanks for the information. Different is different, not better or worse, just different. My relationships crumble around me and I've been told it's because I'm so honest and truthful. Superficial conversations bore me to tears (often literally) and the thought of having to go anywhere that might happen scares me beyond explanation. 

I am so different from anyone around me, so I can relate. My gp doesn't want me to go through the hassles of diagnosis for Aspergers as another label won't really make any difference to anything in my life at my age and current situation, and I can agree with that just now anyway.  

Looking forward to reading your DBT post and my books arriving, then hopefully being able to get involved in the thread. 

Very pleased to see you.

Rest well when you do. 

[Phoenix_Rising]

Good evening on the ocean, 

@Former-Member I am super enjoying your company in Forum Land. Thank you for posting the crochet links over there --> and your thoughts on the DBT thread over there --> 

I am super excited to hear that you suspect you are an undiagnosed Aspie. There are a LOT of them out there! I went to the expense of getting the formal diagnosis because I think it provides useful information for people I try to get support from and no one believes you unless an "expert" has made the diagnosis. I've found that even when helping people don't know how to help (my most recent experience being a good example), it is still helpful to have an explanation of why they can't help. It was always so so SO hard when people saw me only through the lens of BPD and thus went on about me being deliberately difficult etc. At least now there is some understanding of why some people experience my communication as wonky - even if they can't cope with it or help me to de-wonk it. 

I am superly duperly sleepy so I'm going to head off now.

@Jupiter are you watching the ocean tonight? @SleepyPanda I wonder if you will take over ocean watching a little later???

@Former-Member you just popped into my brain- that's all. 

Goodnight Forum Land.  

[Former-Member]

Hello to the ocean peoples 

I recalled where I developed the use of 'super' from @Phoenix_Rising I have been an avid reader since I could read. Although I can no longer recall all of the content, I read all of Enid Blyton's works during primary school and I'm fairly sure the Secret Seven, Famous Five and maybe even some of Laura Lee Hope's Bobbsey Twins books are responsible for picking up the use of 'super'. 

When it was first suggested I might be undiagnosed as Aspie, it made sense, not all the things fell into place, but lots of them did. Many situations definitely benefit from having a formal diagnosis, that's for certain.

If people would only say what they mean and mean what they say instead of stupidly prevaricating and lying and not even understanding the difference between being honesty and lies, I think life, mine anyway, would be somewhat easier. 

Your company is very much appreciated also Phoenix_Rising.  

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member @Former-Member @Jupiter @NikNik are any of you on the ocean today? I am feeling the big hurt feelings from being banned from calling the HC. I know I'm not bad, I'm just wonky aren't I. It's ok to be wonky...it just means I can't talk talk to people except for TTT and my super awesome GP (who is very much scratching her head at the idea that a bunch of mental health professionals struggle to communicate with me). Being a little wonky turtle doesn't make me bad - just different, right? Sometimes when you are different you just need a different song. The guys in the HC still care about me just the same, we just can't talk talk, right? I am trying my super hardest to be brave. Please can you come and ride the waves with me if you are around today?

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member I am super enjoying finding out how much you and I seem to have in common! I was an avid reader of Enid Blyton too!!! When I was nine years old and got my first dog, I named him Timmy after Timmy in the Famous Five. 

I cannot begin to tell you how much I agree with you regarding people saying what they mean and meaning what they say, and not lying (or even to seemingly not understand the difference between honesty and lies)!!!! It is so so SO hard. 

I am so VERY grateful that TTT and I seem to be able to communicate just fine. 

I hope your day has some good in it @Former-Member. 

[Former-Member]

I don't mean to intrude little Turtle, I have seen @Former-Member on the 'Good Morning' thread. Maybe she can help?

I think your into the 'not' stuff . . . so

not sending you love

@Phoenix_Rising

Niqua

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member You can never intrude on the ocean - the ocean is a VERY big place, which belongs to no one. 

Thanks for letting me know @Former-Member is around. I'm sure she will drop by the ocean when she can.