Something’s not right
You are good enough for us here @Former-Member and while that doesn't help with the other people in your life that seem to have let you down - we are here listening.
I know this housing thing really has you feeling anxious and I don't blame you - it must be so hard knowing you have to leave but still nowhere for you and your fur baby to go to yet. Keep looking @Former-Member and keep posting here. I am certainly listening and will be here for you when I can. My days will be consumed with work from today but I am around at night and am only too happy to chat with you 
hi @Former-Member , I relate to your post so much about deleting contacts and all the reasons (except for the god part). I've done that so many times, determined to start fresh again & only associate with genuine, good people and not to be needy and be stronger & more self-sufficient and so on.
I'm sorry you're going thru such a stressful time, you are not alone. You are doing really well in a tough situation.
Let us know how you are going.
It is hard to find those reasons sometimes @Former-Member - been there and felt much the same way that you are right now. Those days when all you want to do is cry and there seems no reason for it apart from how bad you feel about yourself. Much like you I have lved on my own for a very long time and found only a small amount of comfort in my fur babies. I have also been in that state where the last thing I wanted to do was talk to anyone but also knew that is what I needed - but knowing you need support and asking for it are often poles apart. On a positive side you have done that today by posting here and that does take courage - so give yourself some credit for that.
Whilst posting here is not the complete answer it is a connection you have made and that tells me you want that support and that is a very good thing.
Life just plain sucks sometimes @Former-Member however reaching out as you have is a good thing.
Here and listening 
Today was better, made myself go out even though exhausted from not sleeping most the night. Had preplanned morning tea with an old work colleague, long time waiting... Was nice change, then she gave me lift to get my car which has been in workshop 10days. So got a bit done. Back's hurting though.
Had an OP shop fix 😞 more stuff i probably don't need but a temporary good buzz.
I found bunch of x3 & 4 ring folders which are better for plastic sleeves and the cutest little condiments table set. Resting now, as all too much. No pressing suicidal thoughts today thank goodness, just fatigue... Its true that pushing through, as hard as it is, makes a difference. Thanks for email Toitoise...
