Trying makes it worse

[EternalFlower]

Hi @tonys how are ur visitors...i hope u have been well, is it getting cold where u are? Do u still sit out by the fire and cook up some food? It sounds like you have been busy, which is always good...

I had a good day...bit sad i havent been able to reach dr or obtain an appointment this week..my friend said she would call for me today but forgot...i usually achieve more myself i guess but i asked for help. He only works monday to wednesday so seems unlikely. Its ok. Its all ok.

I have been really lonely and i felt i could use some support, i feel i need to see him. Or someone. Idk.

Idk if my neighbours saw the cops come. There were a lot of them at my door and i live in an apartment block so they may have heard. It is embarrassing and feelings of shame from childhood of being caught out. But its not a crime to be unwell.

[tonys]

@EternalFlower    still up mate,   you had a long day didn't you.  Mate I really do sense your loneliness

I just wish there was some sort of groups that you could be a part off.  It bugs me that your supports

are not connecting you to   real flesh,  dance,  and song.    I want to say don't  worry about the police.

But you have standards,  a lady,  in a strange new world and can see how that would leave you feeling

exposed.

The only thing I can offer up,  is that people like me make cops and neighbours forget about a little

lass like you pretty quick.

few weeks ago I had the tray off my ute and decided to drive the tractor into town to grab some pies from the bakery.  Mate . . .   I  was beyond hungry and had a craving.   Bookkeeper chassed me down the road,  and the uniform boys followed me  back home in a couple of cars.  I'm on my big red Ferguson

168 tractor  singing away ,  oblivious.!     Got through the gate which I forgot to shut on the way out.   Well . . . they pile out of there 

cars ,   and of coarse my geese,  goats,  and the sow,  dog n chooks. .  think they may have food on  them.

The geese especially love mobbing  strangers.   Well the story gets worse,  but thats for another day.

My point being,   we always thing people are looking at us,  but theres always a bigger distraction 

comes along to save us.  Any way @EternalFlower .   Old tonys  luvs ya   and I should have said the other day,  When we go fishing,   I put the grub on the hook,  get em of and scale.   All you have to do

is crank the handle,   and watch the tide go down on your nice chilled bottle of Semillon.

Way past my bed time old friend.   Will check in on you tomorrow night mate.  we can have a little

yarn if your up to it..     Peace   my friend.               tonys   moonbase 1

[Oaktree]

Hi @EternalFlower 

I too have had the police come to take me to hospital. They have come to my door and several times they followed me as I tried to escape them. I felt like a criminal but as you say it’s not a crime to be unwell. It is embarrassing! I won’t tell you your neighbours didn’t take notice. They were probably wondering why the police were there. My husband would say what others think about you is none of your business! Try not to worry and just move on with your head held high. You have done nothing wrong. 

Loneliness is an awful thing. I once went to hospital because the loneliness made me want to leave this world. I hope you find some way to combat it. I find being on the forums helps me not feel quite so lonely but I don’t know how you feel. I guess it’s different for everyone.

Wishing you all the best and sending good vibes.

Meggle

[tonys]

Cops. . .  you. . .   me. . . .   eternal. . .     Thats consorting...!    sorry @Oaktree    You know me.

just try to see  a funny side..    Have a top day folks..    tonys.    mb 1

[tonys]

@Sophia1       I have sat in he corner on the naughty stool for a week.

I have written on the blackboard,   500   times.     I will  not  mess  with  Sophia's  coffee..

Even the batteries got taken out of my train set.

So.  .  .  .   I poured a tall frosty glass.   .   .  with a little umbrella in it.

and  given the bar stool a good polish up with my hankie. 

Found the above   in the classified section   of the      Grey Stone  Tribune. .  .   .

tonys   moonbase  1

[EternalFlower]

Hey @Sophia1 hope ur well and reading something new? Do u read one book after the other? Reading was my main friend for many years but now i read graphic novels, poems, and a lot of articles. I like roxane gay a lot.

@LeChuck hope ur stay is ok and ur feeling well. U can do this xx

I am in a bundle of stress, ive made all these appointments and they all clash with each other and i have to cancel or move them or manage.

I did something pretty stupid when unwell and contacted my abusers...idk i felt to hurt something idk.

@tonys love ur cheeky energy gives me such a smile. Happy to report i have veen approved for the ndis.

[Oaktree]

@EternalFlower 

Congratulations on getting approved for NDIS funding, that’s great.

I don’t know about you but I really miss @Sophia1, I hope she comes back to the forums soon…

We do all kinds of things that are probably not the best idea when we are unwell. Hopefully you won’t have any repercussions. 

Wishing you a good rest of your day.

Meggle

[tonys]

OH  THANK GOD FOR THAT...!   Mate .  if anyone needed a break..  Its  you.. @EternalFlower 

You just made my day!      Now you can go to work on things.   NDIS    Its like a big steam tug..  takes a little while to get momentum. . . .  but  hey.   What a win..

Ok mugs empty,   and girls are knocking off.  This is the last day off tomatoe  picking  and then its a wait for the snow peas.   which means   bbque  tomorrow,   and probly end up a tomatoe fight.

Thats what happened last year,    and it got way out of hand. 

They don't realy need me here for snow peas,   so I'm planning a much needed big trip away with my buddy.   Its been one of the best seasons,  but shows over,  apart from the local markets. Boy do I need to get away for a good spell.

Well I have a really good feeling about the path ahead for you  my friend..   Happy   trails   tonys mb 1

[EternalFlower]

Yay tomatoe party @tonys so fun for u guys, but gotta duck!!

Snow peas i love...u are a beautiful farmer.

I didnt get in to see my dr but he did send me a referral via email to a specialist to see to help with sleep...so i guess he is still in good books lol.

While i was away in hospital (where i stayed for a few weeks recently and thought i would never leave ..) i cancelled my internet because i wasnt at home. Lucky they actually didnt cancel it and still refunded me so i had it when i came home early. But without internet i dont mind a little tech break. Sometimes simple is good 

[Oaktree]

@tonys 

Please take your computer with you when you go on your break. I can’t do without my @tonys fix. 

Tomato fight sounds fun. Better have a bath after.

See you soon,

Meggle