Trying makes it worse

[EternalFlower]

Hi lovely @tonys and all here ....hi @Appleblossom @Sophia1 @Oaktree @LeChuck 

Hi @tonys the tomato throwing sounds like a lot...so many people! And the spraying red mist, i hope u got it all out and are tomato free! A little secret about me is that ive never eaten a tomato...i dislike the texture ...so that would not be fun for me!

Icy as anything here. No visitors over the weekend but i do like having more visitors lately, a lot of appointments, physio and dermatologist to look at sh scars....feels good to have that. 

Your guests...so nice...are you having a good time...with the couple...are they nice to talk to? Good folk attract beautiful souls and i see u are one.

[Oaktree]

@EternalFlower @tonys @Sophia1 @LeChuck @Shaz51 

Meggle’s Meals and Cafe

Dish of the Day

Bear Paw Burgers with Chips

enjoy!

Meggle

[Appleblossom]

Really glad you are getting dermatologist @EternalFlower 

Being able to deal with sh scars with someone else may put you on a fuller self care path where you feel seen, accepted and worthy.

I am going across town to a 3 hour music soirree.  I first met this group about 5 years ago, but I was just too isolated and fragile to be able to cope mixing there with all my trauma.  Now I am much better supported, have a fuller creative daily schedule, and a couple of new friends with whom to car pool, so it makes the social differences less painful and we can all make good music together.  It is hard to find people on my side of town who do similar music to me.  I am not so much fussy or posh but cos of chronic back and neck pain need a gentle quality to the music. This group are very active and in reconnecting late last year lots of things have opened up. I am getting plenty wonderful music at the moment. So still in music heaven.  Wish me luck with my rattly car, even getting a few suburbs across I am anxious about my car breaking down.  My back and neck issues are partly hard life, being knocked around, too much work and self harm.  

@tonys @Oaktree 

[Sophia1]

Hello @EternalFlower 

I loved to hear that you rocked along to those songs that I posted.....

music is magical isn't it when we can truly feel it....

Yes I am a vibe person.

Please do share some music when you have the time and mindset to do so...

Your doctor is still there for you which is good. It does sound like, from what you say  that he is trying to find words to reassure you...

Therapy does meander, as do our minds....all of us...

I believe that there will always be more questions than answers.....

That is me anyway. Every answer leads to another question for me.....I work on resting my mind.

Your doctor is also guided by you and meandering himself if that makes sense.

Even doctors have their own questions.

He is acknowledging that you are doing the hard work despite your experience.

Now that you have a support; a peer support worker you have some external opportunities to move away from your thoughts and stimulate your mind....

This is great news for you....

Do you get to choose where you go?

Take care xx

[Sophia1]

@tonys 

May I say   Welcome back  @Sophia1  I hope some form of peace has come knocking at your  door,    and stays for a while..   You are right that one does not need to travel a thousand miles to find answers.  They are there inside us.  We either find them ,   and  accept

them. . .  or we don't.  Depends if we are receptive to truths,  are ready,  capable.  Etc    etc..

 Remember the "simple Mans prayer"   That you liked so much Sophia.  I always default back to that

little poem..

I know nothing of M H .   I only know for the most part,  I'm very happy.    But then I dont expect

anything much from life.    I do weave my way around stress in search of peace.  Thats not running.

    And  Sophia,   I pray the arms of peace embrace you and hold you so tight,   all you can do is catch your breath and make peace with that waters edge 

Beautiful words Tonys

I work on making peace with my thoughts.

I just need someone to start throwing some tomatoes at life that keeps on throwing up more bad news.

Sometimes I feel like throwing more than tomatoes.

On the subject of tomatoes.

I thought oh no...

They could have made home made passata to bottle and store to later make authentic pasta sauce.

Love my italian food

mangia mangia

ciao

[tonys]

Hey  @Oaktree     Bout time on the  grub.   There's  dead rhinoceros down the river with his aaa

Actually..    best not finish that.     How's your day mate .  I will pop in later to night.  Got the tray of 

my ute,  and just found out my rego  is due.  Panic stations

@Appleblossom   Fun little adventure for you planed it would seem.    Cars hey,  what a pain in the butt

I have rolled hundreds of coats of paint on mine and that seems to be holding it together. Think it needs a new forward propulsion rubber band though,  

Enjoy your little venture and soak up the music and the spirit,  Well done, 'out n about'   girl.

and I hear you on the peaceful music.  

https://youtu.be/X2lkvrMa27c                Have a great  day.     tonys   moonbase  1

[EternalFlower]

Hi @tonys i admit ive never seen twin peaks but my childhood bestie who im still in touch with is obsessed....i missed akl good art and culture lol. But this song was so perfect i loved it thank u really

[EternalFlower]

Hi @Sophia1 you sound well...and i am happy to hear from you and connect at any point you are up to it....u can write on my thread here to others of course. I dont think anyone owns any thread and like to see connections. You are sweet to be a vibe person and have intuition, its so hard as we grow to keep that sensitivity abd music is such a direct line. What are you listening to lately? Have you seen any good shows?

My dr is nice, very focussed on me. He is very bad with punctuality and is trying to correct that. I came on time ish but the receptionist didnt tell him so he told her off as we both waited , him in his office, me in the waiting room while the other was there. She came out and apologised to him a million times. What about me? They see drs as deities and us as ants. She worried to offend him, but not me.

Its icy here but i liek the cold weather, just not at night....its so creepy and my bed is like ice.

[EternalFlower]

Hi @Appleblossom that sounds beautiful with the increase in support and confidence. U do u and the others around u are lucky really to have ur music contribution and friendship.

How did the car fare?

[Appleblossom]

Thanks for your belief in me. @EternalFlower My old beautiful beast did 50 kms for me today, tho I went the rest of the way with my friend in her car, which really helps develop social confidence as well.  Going gently bently, but we both acknowledged the value of our friendship today so that was great. Another lady I met in January specially came to talk to me, and said we had a special connection and would play together again.  I just never had that as a kid. I was always the new girl and then moved on and by the time that stopped I only knew how to be on the edges. Better late than never.

How are you?  What are your goto activities ... just to fill your day ...