Trying makes it worse

[EternalFlower]

Hello my friends and lovely individuals @Shaz51 @tonys @Appleblossom @Owlunar @Oaktree @Thyme 

How are u doing?

Feeling ok here, trying to access an admission to a new hospital via NDIS and have started getting some supports.

I have used other supports in the community before like VMIAC which is really inspiring. Very diff to public hospital stuff because they care and when u finish theu send u a letter about all ur strengths. It is a very precious thing to me.

I wander how nice it would be if psychs did that as well. I had one before who told me I could be a real success and go far. It is nice after having trauma to have a corrective experience. I wander how many of us have lost people or supports with no chance to say goodbye or process.

[Oaktree]

Hi @EternalFlower 

I am doing well thanks. The last two days have been spent stressing about the cleaner coming and having the house decluttered enough before hubby has his knee surgery. His surgery is on the 4th of July. 

You are sounding like you are doing much better? I hope you are. Anyway it is hard when you don’t get a chance to say goodbye to people. As you say it makes it harder to process the loss. I had that happen to me with someone I was very close with at a very vulnerable time in my life. It took me ages to get over it. Contact was severed by a third party. I was an emotional wreck. 

Hugs to you x

Meggle

[Shaz51]

Hello @EternalFlower , @Oaktree 🥰

Very tired here , nearly ready for bed 🛌 

[tonys]

beaut to open a letter and it starts with    "feeling ok here".  You just put some breeze back in my sails.

Thankyou @EternalFlower .    Glad you are receiving quality care.    Mate ,   you deserve it. 

Thoughts are with you .                                                                                                                       tonys   mb 1        

[Appleblossom]

Hey @EternalFlower Good to hear.  You deserve constructive input. Lap up any that comes your way ...

This is a longish video and I only watch it in small snippets ... but there are some goodies in it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Ojpm6G3PYw 

and Hey @Oaktree @Shaz51 @tonys @Owlunar 

Freezing but better than yesterday.  Hope all is well ... as possible ... in your worlds....

Hugs

[EternalFlower]

Hey @Appleblossom thanks for the video. Lovely to hear from u, how was ur day? 

I am very cold as well in my old style home. The windows dont close properly.

No visitors or calls today and have discharged myself from MIND, another org that I got services from.

They kept missing appointments and no apology.

I try.

For me now best remedy is just self care and taking things slowly. Every day i go to the coffee shop and sit outside and read. At least it is something.

[tyme]

Hugs @EternalFlower You deserve to be heard.

Hi @Appleblossom @tonys @Oaktree 

[EternalFlower]

I appreciate that @tyme 

The worker who cancelled lost her temper at me when I said i need her to please tell me if she cant make it.

I knew I had to get out of there.

One of the things i am learning is to say no to services that make me feel worse.

I have not felt comfortable in this service at MIND and dont trust them.

They interviewed me when I joined and asked if I had any special concerns and I said just please thst someone tell me if they arent coming because it makes me so anxious.

[tonys]

Hello @Appleblossom   Had a tough day.   Wound care, bed change, tube n bottles, picking n prodding. I feel like one of those kabab things they keep shaving wet  slices of meat off..     But,   I did get my harmonica back at the end of the torment.  Its good as new.

So..   I hope you had a really good day because you made mine by sending me that link.

What a remarkable man.  I had to do a lot of rewinds to absorb it all but I'm the better for watching it.

A thousand questions arise.  Wouldn't I love this guy giving my pipes a tune up...     stop it..   I can see you nodding.

After the talk,  in the Q n A ,   he talked about the existence of the material world being a construct of our minds because thats where our senses end  etc. .  and well my head just..       popped.   I'll clean down the walls tomorrow and finish watching.  This guy has me captivated.  Nailed to a bed in here is doing my head in and you have really given me a choice prime rib,  to obsess, ponder n scratch

over.   Thanks so much for sending it to me.   

Its why MH needs so much funding and time is my first thought.  

I bet It only took a micro second for the A I computor algorithms at government  H Q  to work out  

the gun and the tazer are cheaper...   

Hope we can talk a bit more about the substance of your link one night.         take care  @Appleblossom .

Hi @EternalFlower   @Shaz51   @tyme @Oaktree  n  @StuF   

I do hope you are all well and found meaning  comfort and laughter in your day.            Best wishes         t mb 1

[tonys]

Hi @tyme   Thankyou and hope you are well.   I tried tagging you from some new thread called 

Re  Forums re design. anyway left a message for you there if thats ok.   Crumb trail.

Hope your rugged up, heater cranked, nursing a hot mug of jo.  They tell me it a savage winter out there.                                                                                                                            best wishes .  tonys