@BlueBay. You are making steps towards a better life. You just have to keep focusing on positives that are happening in your life. Ignore your negative self talk. Keep working with your therapists. Listen to what they say.
Write down 3 things your grateful for every day. Especially important when you don't feel like it.
Remember the help your son has besn giving you. Keep walking your dog.
Be kind to yourself.
You will get there.