Kato,
Ille need to read it all again, Ille need to focus and can't at the moment.
If you maybe separate yourself a little inside the pain bit

To the

the 'glimmer of light.'
Or
help is available.

Can you find another avenue inside yourself that is clean from pain and

Like, you are just sitting??

I am looking at this poem and it feels good, really good
But a bit too much like the teacher, not your beautiful self.

Can you understand??