@Former-Member I am curled up in the car outside my GP's office. She told me she doesn't know when she will get a chance to call the therapists I have shortlisted and I went into spectacular meltdown. I am regulated now but SO tired and SO hopeless. I so very very badly wish I had a "friend or family" person who could help me make these calls. I am frustrated that I wasn't able to find an email address for most of them. I know my brain is so scrambled I can't call them myself. I super want to die right now. Everywhere I turn the message is "I am too busy for you" ...so what can it possibly matter if I die. I am so so so tired. Thank you for listening. I will just sit here until I am ok to drive.