It's just that I am unable to go to strange places. If a door is closed I cannot open it.

If there is a man in the waiting room I will trigger...have to leave..... Then if I get through that there is a good chance that I won't even be able to speak.

I know it sounds so stupid but that is what life is for me. 

Panic, anxiety, flashbacks, triggers.... If I don't go they will call the police.

Its too much for me to manage..... I can't do it.

I don't know what to do.....