Bastless and Odin

[Bast]

Hi all

With so many thanks for your support. Today I slept, how lovely to be immersed in my doona and able to simply ward off the nightmares and continue. 

I finally awoke at 18.30 with P......y on my chest very adamamently requesting dinner. Did a token routine and started sooking. My mind is simply a cesspit and will not relent. The thoughts are darker every day.

The partner provided care for the starving ones - fed. The partner reported that Odin has regressed and become highly aggressive towards him. I visited him twice and tried to provide soothing. He seemed to respond a little, favourite cat biccies also helped. 

I loathe my inability to contend with this and the constant battle to keep on going, my promise is slipping so badly. The pain is horrific today.

Bastless

[Appleblossom]

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜💐💕 @Bast

[Bast]

@Faith-and-Hope@Appleblossom@utopia@Queenie@Former-Member@

Hi all

I write again as life is again so utterly painful, I do not know any reason to keep on trying. Everything just hurts. My partner has taken up his usual caustic remarks, the aggressive comments and hostility are so hard to cope with. I know he is experiencing being unwell,  with multiple nasty germs as am I however the verbal abuse has started again. He will then act like nothing has happened.

I know that this is because my workcover claim has been reneged upon because I still undertake private practice. I am accordingly now able to return to the workplace that has harmed me so badly on a full time basis. 
They have a supplementary IME report to prove it.

My partner became angry, hostile and aggrresive ever since. It is now my fault that I cannot work there ever again. I have done my best to continue my counselling practice 8+ hours per week. I honestly do not know how I can go on. 

Bast has gone, I cannot feel his presence at all, I hope that this is OK, I miss him so much. Odin is on his way to doing better. He has lost some weight and regained some confidence and agility, so good to see. He is now balancing effectively on the bannnisters and taking strolls downstairs. His reportedly much loved cat tree is still of little interest although my others seem to like it. 

I am so unwell now that I cannot see any way forward.

Regards and thank you Bastless and Odin

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Bast .....

Just listening, and sitting with you.

I am sorry you are missing Bast, but so glad to hear that Odin is settling.  Love that he is balancing on the banisters .....

[Appleblossom]

@Bast

 

[Queenie]

I am sorry to hear you missing Bast and cannot feel their presence around you. I am sure wherever Bast is now, their at peace. I am glad to hear Odin is balancing up on the banisters! I hope to hear more of his antics! 

Sitting with you and offering you a gentle hug Bastless. 

[utopia]

Hello @Bast. Good to hear from you. Can you ignore your husbands comments or throw then back in his face?
You may not be able to feel Bast anymore - but that's okay. He probably stayed around in spirit until he knew you were okay.
Yes hubby is still a pain. But your cats have settled into a new group and Odin is gaining in confidence & character. That's perfect.
Remember your Bast for the unique character that he waa. Not felt. But not forgotten.
Thinking of you

[Bast]

@utopia@Queenie@Appleblossom@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member

Hi all 

Thank you your kindness and support are everything to me. 

Queenie thank you for your lovely words - Odin and I are also sending you hugs and purrs.

Utopia thank you - your empathy matters so much - the hubby's behaviour hurts, I have tried repeatedly to address this for 26 years, sometimes he improves for a while and then just goes straight back to the same old passive/aggressive caustic sh..... At least I know he is a slow learner - and I do get that when I am vulnerable it really takes a hold. Confrontation - he becomes viscious and subsequently apologises and improves for a while - I am just not up for this at present. You are so right Bast remains in my heart and my mind. Odin continue to develop and evolve here. I will do my best to make this happen. 

Utopia I hope that your journey is continuing to improve and being home is now ideal for you. I continue to admire your strength and courage. I will endeavour to emulate you with the workcover battle that is pending. 

with many thoughts

Bastless and Odin

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Bast ..... the only answer I have found for passive-agressive behaviour is to be passively resistant .... be polite, but removed, and remove yourself physically from the same space as quickly as you can in a dignified manner .... giving just enough attention to whatever is going on to not incite it further, and then saunter off to a different part of the house and make yourself busy with other things.

It doesn't resolve it, but it's the only way I have found to live with it and quasi-improve it.

Thankfully it wasn't present within my in-house relationships until recent years, and is progressively being brought back under control again now by a therapy team.

Please take care of you ..... ❣️