Life can be a Pain

[Appleblossom]

Just saying hello @Owlunar Sorry things are extra tough with family.

Love your idea of walking on the beach during January.  I think I may do a bit more of that next year. Just little walks but make it a "thing".

I also remember the day my oldest came to me like a birthday when she was 6 weeks. Nobody else knows it but its is carved into my heart.

Somehow I need a blend of the east and west in my spiritual practise.

Wishing you All

Peace

[Former-Member]

Found this beautiful song For those missing someone at Christmas
https://youtu.be/0yFXfAGl17M

[Former-Member]

@Appleblossom - good yo see you pop up. Peace to you. Hope your son is with you, otherwise - we are. Stay Strong sista.❤❤😱

@Owlunar. Hugz to you too ❤❤❤

[Appleblossom]

Hi @Owlunar

Thanks for the image @Former-Member

It fitted me well. Nice to see the grand and the music stand. Just like my place.

One of my old students loved "The Piano Guys".

I am dealing with the death of cats right at this moment so I guess christmas is consolidating even more as a time of death and grief. I need to get off line, but thank you all for being there.

[Former-Member]

Crying with you @Appleblossom, replied longer to you on the cat thread. Sorry I didn't catch you in real time. You take all the time you need ❤❤❤

[Former-Member]

@Appleblossom,
https://youtu.be/0yFXfAGl17M

[Owlunar]

Hi @Appleblossom

I do understand what you mean about your oldest being like a birthday and it was carved into your heart - adoption is something really different - yours was 6 weeks - mine was only 2 weeks - none the less - it changes our lives over-night - 

It was heart-breaking to realise there was something wrong with him - but after a few hours battling with it I made a commitment and that is something I still feel to this day - but what can I liken it to? This unhappy little baby who was so beautiful woke a flame inside me that burns to this day. It can never go out - it shines and other people tell me I have this light - and they often don't know what it is - but it goes on and on and had I not made my commitment it would not have been there - at least - I don't think so.

It's really fantastic - and it's like a Christmas present reading what you said about your first being carved into your heart. Yes - they are.

My relations - yes - this is difficult but with so much happening right before Christmas I laid that aside - I will be seeing a new therapist in January and after that - I am going to fly interstate anyway and it might be harder for my relative who is stopping me from seeing the other one to stop me from visiting.

I can hope anyway - my knee is taking it's time but is gradually settling down

That picture is really wonderful and thought-provoking - btw - how far away is the east from the west? - Christ was born in the Middle East. Interesting idea

The imagery is unique and our religious imagery is individually iconic - (what a different expression) - I was thinking about this when I remembered that I have a candy cane in my bag - now - I had to think what that could be in Western religious thought and of course - it's the shepherds' crook

I want to wish you the best Christmas possible and hope your time will be peaceful this Christmas and I also want to acknowledge how much your messages here make me think - 

Dec

[outlander]

@Owlunar 💙💜💖❤

[outlander]

evening @Owlunar how have you been holding up? youve been offline for a few days or been really quiet whihc is fine but often means your struggling so how are you?

[Owlunar]

@outlander

Hi there - I am okay - I was out most of Christmas Day with my son-in-law's family - so many kids there - my grandson has 5 kids and a new house with 6 bedrooms and they are doing up the back garden like a kindergarden - wow - they have so much great stuff to really get the kids exercising and I really liked to see that

So I was out longer than I though though and I had a couple of spare tablets but I really needed to have taken a couple more with me because I was out for so long - great day - but yesterday and earlier today I was paying in pain which is fairly normal for me to have pain after such an event - and I get as much fun out of a family day like that - 

But I shoulda taken more pills with me - ahhhhhhhhhhhh

I have decided to go interstate and see my rellies when my knee settles down - it can still give me a bit of a hard time when I over-do and I sure did on Christmas Day so I am thinking I will most likely wait until February to go. I do feel a lot better about this situation than I did several days back - and I have a medicare plan to see a therapist about this and a few other things happening in my life - somethings I can deal with soon and other things take longer but I am making decisions

How are you Outlander - I have an annoying bug in my phone right now - it blocks my internet connection which stops me from reading when I am out or in bed - but this will pass I am sure or maybe I need a new battery in my phone. 

As my knee settles there a quite a few things for me to attend to out of the house - I need to get a few things from shops

One of my presents for Christmas was a large jigsaw of the solar-system - I have to move my piano keyboard a bit to make room on the table and I am looking forward to starting that

All the best Outlander and thanks for the shout-out

Dec