not feeling good

[BlueBay]

Can't sleep memories of old places and people triggering. I hate this. I really do.
I feel very destructive and need to lash out

[Zoe7]

I'm here @BlueBay Talk to me my friend.

[Appleblossom]

Hi @BlueBay: 

What happens when you breathe through it and hold on to Madame Lash for a little bit .. but dont flick the whip?

[Zoe7]

Still here for you @BlueBay - worried about you my beautiful friend 

[BlueBay]

It hurts the memories hurt
It's never going to get better.
I'm over all this no more
Sorry everyone.

[Zoe7]

We love you @BlueBay and I definitely understand some of your pain. It is really hard but you have friends here that will listen

Please stay safe tonight my beautiful friend - I love you and care about you and hate seeing you in so much pain - and am here for you when you need

... and always sitting on your shoulder 

[Appleblossom]

Thought I send ANGELS

[BlueBay]

Nothing gets better
It's all a lie
People say you'll get better
It's not true
I hate everything
My life
My
It doesn't matter
I don't care
I'm so tired of all of this
It's no use anymore

[Zoe7]

you know what at @BlueBay sometimes things don't get 'better' we just learn new ways of 'living' with it. 

You are useful - you hold me up and give me hope. I love having you around because I can feel your pain and know you understand mine - that really does help me. 

Keep talking to me @BlueBay - you know I understand so much of it and I want to listen

Zoe

[BlueBay]

I don't want to trigger anyone @Zoe7
Lots of horrible thoughts in my head
I can't do this anymore
I'm tired
I've had enough
I'm crying
Im so mentally stuffed
Sorry to you and everyone.