I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I can’t see it @lavenderhaze. I really wish I could. Right now it just hurts so much. The is no hope. I have nothing and I am nothing. I hate me and I hate my life. 

Sorry for being so negative. I wish it could be different. 

[lavenderhaze]

Don't be sorry hun @Captain24 

If that is how you feel then that's how you feel

Have sent an email, wanted to check in privately 

Sitting with you ❤️

[Captain24]

It didn’t come through @lavenderhaze. I’ve been having some problems with it. It may come through in a while. Email is as good as me. 

[lavenderhaze]

I have resent it to you hun @Captain24 

[Captain24]

I’ve responded @lavenderhaze  I’m going to try and sleep the day away

[Jynx]

Hey @Captain24 trouble getting off to sleepy town? Want some company?

[Captain24]

I’m tired because of the meds but my brain won’t shut off @Jynx. I just want to give up.

I just went through my finances and I can’t afford to go to hospital. I can’t pay my house payment, a dog sitter and my rates. 

It’s a get through this on my own situation. At least I know that option is not available. 

[Jynx]

That makes it hard @Captain24 for sure. Don't suppose it's something your folks could help with? 

[Captain24]

Nah they can’t @Jynx they are pensioners. 

I go in August so I’ll just have to wait until then. I have to try and be strong enough. I’m not sure I can though. I can’t see it.