HeloRe: Trying makes it worse

[Appleblossom]

@EternalFlower 

How have things been through the night?

Any interruptions?

Have the meds worn off?

I really liked that you asked your friend for canvas totes to be able to organise your things to leave.  It shows healthy awareness and forward practical thinking.

@maddison "And no, it's not your fault - or my fault. Words are tricky things - listening is not about the words." 

Yes the words are only part of the communication.

@Historylover Glad to share some good vibes ... even if its not the Beach Boys

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWTnauLJGTk 

Brian Wilson had his mental health issues.  Did any of you see his biopic? I saw it last year.

If I am OCD its about following up mental health stuff.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rBF6u_Qt-A0 

When I was a kid I was not allowed to listen to anything pop.  In year 9 a girl at school showed me how to play the piano bit of Spicks and Specks (the song) as there was a piano in the room. She was surprised I had never heard it. Pretty basic and thumpy.  I never heard the actual song for many years. Just looked it up now.  In a way it is good to have access to so much culture online .. makes it easier to connect the dots ... understanding what lead to what...making meaning.  My son loved the show. I do not think that was a coincidence. He just loved it that people were having fun talking about music. Given his experience growing up seeing my mother and I doing all the teaching it was good for him to see the jokes and patter about it, not always formal teaching.  

Listening is multi layered.  Words may be uttered or applied to non verbal situations, but they are indeed tricky and not always about clarity, or dogmatic or straight correct this or that.  There is a lot of slippage in language.  

@Shaz51 Always good to see you. We have gone a long way together.

[Historylover]

Sounds like your weekend was exhilarating, @Appleblossom. I'm pleased you gave yourself a treat, we need them from time to time. It makes our frugality in other times worth it. 

Not a lot going on here. I hope you have a good day. The weather is looking rather sublime here, so far. 

[Appleblossom]

Quiet day here @Historylover  Some music prac and a 2 hour commitment later.  Need to get off puta.. or I might end up fossilised like a pieta ... NOT...lol 

[EternalFlower]

Hello sweet ppl,

I remember little birdy, a beautiful Bon Iver cover @maddison 

Glad U liked Kesha, it's a story of survival , she wrote the music while in an awful contract with a man who allegedly hurt her and she wanted to get out of it. So she wrote her pain .

Hospital is weird for sure. I overhead the gross guy I don't like saying he's leaving tomorrow 

This is good. 

Devastating beyond re that nurse , U deserved so much better, they really impact ppl and intimidate us. I have forgotten how to ask sometimes because of fear, fear from this broken cage of a system. 

@Appleblossom love the way you communicate here, I think we all do! I had a friend with a complex attitude towards music, interesting that you say relaxing . A lot of things get the relaxing sucked out when they are mixed with other things .

Thank U to everyone here who supported me around sh . It was hard to mention and I was held.

Hospital is complex. I'm always thinking I'm the problem 

@maddison I relate to that and appreciate as well @Appleblossom that words sometimes get missed. I am asking but not being heard, so I ask again and again 

This is a life skill I am learning. I am too passive 

Hi @Shaz51 glad U felt the love. Would always love to share kindness with U here and big hugs 

@Historylover @hanami @Paperdaisy @

[Appleblossom]

@EternalFlower 

It is so important to be able to talk about sh ... it is very hard to even get to the point of discussing and not doing it, and then to be rebuffed or repressed is no good.

I have only had one Good compassionate response for me ... she eventually showed up years later as audience at a concert. It was weird to see her there.  She was a gp. She went with me to my car to get the "offending" item, and let me sit in her waiting room just overwhelmed with tears til I was ready to go.  

I hope you like this little girl doing "Imagine" and her father's YT is a favourite for me cos they play for animals and are beyond all the pretentious BS.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0jbiFuxEn0c 

I do not believe in endless mindless distraction, but some can be good.

Some distraction becomes mindful.

[TAB]

not been on here in a while @EternalFlower  are you in hosp ? hope things okay 

Ha ha I edited the 'subject' it was driving me nuts re thread lol

Hi @Appleblossom @Historylover @maddison  apologies for other day  Hey @Shaz51 

[maddison]

Hey @EternalFlower 

 Hope your day is ok. How is your snack stash? Wish I had one! Living of McDonald's cookies from last night's dinner. 

I feel like I'm way too passive too. It's true, we get better every day at becoming more assertive.

Oh yes, that nurse really impacted me. I was unsure of myself days following. Intellectually, I knew I had done nothing wrong. The system itself is intimadating.

Thankyou for kind words. I very often admire how you find a way to support others, when you are amongst so much unfairness urself. I can't always do that. Sometimes I get tunnel vision & can't offer support - I can only express....

I personally don't have any issue at all with you discussing sh or si.

I wish I had had the ability & opportunities to talk when I needed. I really do admire the strength it takes to share. You are brave & I am proud (heaps) 😊

Soo....Birdy (skinny love) is beautiful! 

Vs little Birdy...

Same but different 

https://youtu.be/uiFlI8nuOnU 

"It's ok. You're not a bad one - you're sane.

I can't help this pain that I'm feeling.

Relapse & soda.

My head is not all that you want it to lay."

[maddison]

Very lucky & happy Satang @Appleblossom  💚💜💛 this one.

[maddison]

Love ya @TAB I was snappy. Forgive me.

[Historylover]

How are you @TAB? Feeling better, I hope.